I'm still busting my ass at my job... Piercing people and selling jewelry. Its getting pretty annoying working there and sometimes I think I want to leave. I don't think I will though but I am going to get another job as well. In the end I just want more money to help me out with moving out and also I want to get my tattoo apprenticeship. I always wanted to tattoo and I can't wait to actually start learning how to; I just need to get a few thousand. I also need to get my art portfolio from my old house and I'm going to start adding more things to it because not only will I need it for this apprenticeship but college as well.
Sadly I haven't been drawing or painting that much anymore though. Its depressing that I've let my depression and drug use prevent me from doing so. I mean I do have a lot of talent and I was in national art honor society but lately I have no motivation to pick up a pencil or a paintbrush... I need to get back to the thing I love which is making art. My doctor laughed when I told her I haven't been really doing anything art related. She thought that since I am depressed I should be making masterpieces but that is far from the truth... Hmmm, maybe I would be but its hard to do that when you don't even feel like picking up a piece of paper.
I need to find some inspiration again... I need some motivation. I have brought new art pencils and a sketchbook but that was over a month ago, lol and its still laying on my floor untouched. Ugh, I hate this so much and I just want to stop being depressed but it only seems to get worse and worse, not better. I guess only time will tell.
For now I will listen to Confide and think about all the things I want to do but can't even accomplish anymore.
Sadly I haven't been drawing or painting that much anymore though. Its depressing that I've let my depression and drug use prevent me from doing so. I mean I do have a lot of talent and I was in national art honor society but lately I have no motivation to pick up a pencil or a paintbrush... I need to get back to the thing I love which is making art. My doctor laughed when I told her I haven't been really doing anything art related. She thought that since I am depressed I should be making masterpieces but that is far from the truth... Hmmm, maybe I would be but its hard to do that when you don't even feel like picking up a piece of paper.
I need to find some inspiration again... I need some motivation. I have brought new art pencils and a sketchbook but that was over a month ago, lol and its still laying on my floor untouched. Ugh, I hate this so much and I just want to stop being depressed but it only seems to get worse and worse, not better. I guess only time will tell.
For now I will listen to Confide and think about all the things I want to do but can't even accomplish anymore.