Are you...

[frostyangel]

The person you always wanted to be??
...

Sometimes in this life, we give into
fear, not pushing ourselves hard enough
to the best path.. we settle for what is
okay. What makes ends meet.. sometimes
we just don't believe in what makes us,
well us.. there is something beautiful
that we all hold deep within our souls..
In everyone of us..

If we give up on ourselves.. who will
pick us up.. noone will understand,
listen, or fight for you, as hard..
but you..
believe in
yourselves..

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my emotional disadvantage
it enslaved me..

the last week of my life
had had this endless surrender
the would just not end..

I couldn't understand all
those motivational words
that I knew..

That I could speak to
anyone who needed my
help.

They just seemed so..
so foreign

How do I bring what
I hold in my hands
to life?

And why was it steaming
my thoughts so vigorously
lately?

And the anger of an unwanting
feelings which I found
within myself; what I was
allowing myself to become..

Here I was relinquishing
possessions of my future

onto a hope..
that I could
not figure out

What was it that I needed..
What was it that I wanted..

To make me .. be
better..

better than anything
I was allowing myself
to become..

And now there is blame..
Do I blame myself..
Do I blame them..
But who really in the
end can discover..

I have this unforgetable
desire to live out this
feeling that I want to be

noticed..
important..

sometimes..


Just not me..

But I ran before..
now I just might be
running again..

Can I not grow up..
Can I not take on
what I know I can
become..

And this dazzling
inspiration that I
yearned for..
I always beholded..

I just needed you..
to believe in me..

Time will allow any
discovery.. my soul
will find.. the you
inside of me...

 

[rm-rf]

if i were the person i wanted to be, theyd probably lock me up

 

[bisKi]

who do i want to be?? that was what plagued me so many years ago when I was younger - but now I know the person i want to be ~ me.

Sometimes in this life, we give into
fear, not pushing ourselves hard enough
to the best path.. we settle for what is
okay. What makes ends meet.. sometimes
we just don't believe in what makes us,
well us.. there is something beautiful
that we all hold deep within our souls..
In everyone of us..

^^ it took a while for me to reconcile who I am today is because of constant denial in the past - not who I really am, but merely a person someone else wanted me to be.

I just needed you..
to believe in me..

what we really need is to believe in ourselves. i missed your work frosty - was just thinking about you the other day :D

xoxoxo

 

[E-girl]

Sometimes in this life, we give into
fear, not pushing ourselves hard enough
to the best path.. we settle for what is
okay. What makes ends meet.. sometimes
we just don't believe in what makes us,
well us.. there is something beautiful
that we all hold deep within our souls..
In everyone of us..

Remember we had a discussion a long time ago... we were in my room, laying on my bed, and we were talking about boys. The topic was... Do i settle for being content, for something that is just good... or do i go out there and take the chance of finding something that is GREAT? And you told me not to just settle for being content... And every now and then, i stop and wonder... and i content? Or am i happy?

This is going to be my 6th year in college. I'm so close to finishing, and only now is the realization of what lies beyond becoming so scary to me.... I'm going to have one of those "real jobs".... you know, the 9-5 kind... with a paycheck... not living on tips and hopes that i'll make rent. Maybe living somewhere nicer. Getting to the age where its time to start thinking about a family. Growing up and stop going to parties and clubs or hanging out at local bars every night. This should EXCITE me, but instead... it scares the fucking hell out of me.

I LIKE my life. I like it even though i'm "just making ends meet." sometimes i DONT know if i'm gonna make rent, or if i'll have money for this bill and that bill... my car makes a new noise every week, and my relationship is something i'm still working very hard on. Nothing comes easy. But ya know what? In some pathetic way, i'm happy making $2.83 an hour, and busting my ass, and going out with the same people every night, to the same places, and not knowing where i'll be tomorrow. So now, if you asked me the same question... my answer would be different. And it doesnt just apply to boys anymore... its became a mantra for my life.

You talk about wanting to be noticed. Did you ever wonder how you can be noticed when everyone around you is wearing the same uniform... or when you feel like you're just nothing special... i've felt that way. but i think you are starting to feel the same way i am, and maybe it's something that comes with age... I'm happy with myself, and that's all that matters. When you were younger, maybe it took those 2 lovely blond streaks in your hair to turn heads... but now, you can offer something more to people -- and i dont need to list for you what those things are... you have a confidence that people notice. Confidence that i'm sometimes jealous of. Confidence that allowed you to walk right past me the other day in the restaurant, and pretend we didn't know each other.

And if i had confidence like that, i would have come up to you and said.... "hi". But i dont. And i didnt. My point is... whatever hasn't killed us yet, will only make us stronger.

 

[Aja909]

-Alex