DOB
Bluelighter
I think that if people knew what things sometimes go in my head,I mean these "backstage" ones,they would think I am sick crazy son of a you know
I dont do like anything bad,I am pefectly normal,my main thinking part of mind,is fine its this stuff that come out of sub concious that batshit crazy
like I would be going in car with with someone and I think what would happen if I opened door while driving,how it could be ripped of by another car,how would that person get angry and how weird it will be
most of these crazy ideas are just crazy social ones,its about what would people I try to look to like fine person would think I done something totaly unexpected and shocking in bad way
or when I have knife on table and my cat shows up I for some reason image stabbing that cat,but thats so sick I love cats more than people and I never harmed or will never harm one,I was from young age very nice to all animals I regulary trow insect out of window while others will just crush it
or about girls I like I would never cheat my partner but I noticed in the back of my mind theres on going like train of tought about selecting girl I should love and its very primite,its like comparing their bodies and whos more fit wins but I have control over it only when I am fully aware of it most of the time its going un noticed in the back stage,thats fucking retarded,I would never let these things happen in my mainstage
am I alone? is that mental sickness? I am not sure becose I never let these ideas to take on into real world but I dont understand where is my brain comming with this crap,its like I had some egoistic primitive beast inside me
I dont do like anything bad,I am pefectly normal,my main thinking part of mind,is fine its this stuff that come out of sub concious that batshit crazy
like I would be going in car with with someone and I think what would happen if I opened door while driving,how it could be ripped of by another car,how would that person get angry and how weird it will be
most of these crazy ideas are just crazy social ones,its about what would people I try to look to like fine person would think I done something totaly unexpected and shocking in bad way
or when I have knife on table and my cat shows up I for some reason image stabbing that cat,but thats so sick I love cats more than people and I never harmed or will never harm one,I was from young age very nice to all animals I regulary trow insect out of window while others will just crush it
or about girls I like I would never cheat my partner but I noticed in the back of my mind theres on going like train of tought about selecting girl I should love and its very primite,its like comparing their bodies and whos more fit wins but I have control over it only when I am fully aware of it most of the time its going un noticed in the back stage,thats fucking retarded,I would never let these things happen in my mainstage
am I alone? is that mental sickness? I am not sure becose I never let these ideas to take on into real world but I dont understand where is my brain comming with this crap,its like I had some egoistic primitive beast inside me