I popped five yellow dolphins over the course of the last two days. I could still feel myself clenching my teeth now from last night. I woke up and smoked a blunt, popped some clonazepam, and smoked some bowls.
after a whole nite waiting to everyone (i live with a lot of people in the same house unfortunately and they are all sober people) go sleep now its my turn to raise and shine i felt whole night a very intense hunger for benzos and finally pumped up my body with them at last i feel like i was off to benzos for years fuck sake. its nice to be everything in its proper place again, everything seems ok but i know its just a delusion, nothing is ok, everything suck and when i sobered up tomorrow and crave for benzos again after i'll wake up the reality which i hardly stand will capture me again til the next dose but i dont give a fuck about it right now rite now, right fucking now its my time, my turn, in my world, its just me and the meds :D i gonna go and hug my girlfriend now , she's sleeping but dont give a shit i love her so much and wanna be with her right now
bout 7-8mg xanax today, round another 80mg of diazeam n 500mg tramadol and a fresh qyarter oz of weed. im in bliss again looking forward to a bottle of red when i go hang out at my mates tonight
Typing while nodding is kinda difficult! Double vision, eye wiggles... ahhhh! It's about time to get under the covers and turn my lights out. I fucking love opiates
home alone by myself now. had 50mg of valium so far and am starting to feel mighty fuzzy...it may be the bong synersising(sp) with it gonnna keep smokin more bongs and incease my valium hehe. the simpsons is on tv to!
i thought today was fuckn saturday, blanked out for 3 days on the vals and aplro's...fuckn short term memory of mine. i was all keen to my mate "so whats out plan tonight? headin out for a few beers?" and hes just replied "nuh man its tueday and im goin to chill with my gf" lol spun me out
^ Damn, I don't think I've ever spaced out for that long. 24 hours or so, yea, but more than a few days? Wow...
Granted, I've been gone for a good bit on benzos, but alcohol is usually the culprit. And normally, the next day is a haze, just kind of floating through it, not really coming to fully till like 5pm or so, those days aren't the best I've had. More of a "damn, need to stop doing this to myself" kinda thing lol.
it was somewhat of a binge for me, i dont have a great tolerance. i has about 12 mg of xanax and 250mg of valium, a shitload of weed and a bit of alchol