I had the will to put the opiates aside so I can get through these minor withdrawals and emerge with a lower tolerance, clean pee, and hopefully some intelligence.
In the meantime however... I got me a bag of pride and hope and plenty of time to youthanise. Cokayne. I love this shit and it's cheaper than my heroin habit. Good stuff. For $50 I've got myself five hours of intense fun whereas with H $50 gets me a mild high for four and I just fall asleep anyways. Plus with coke I don't want to do it the next day and the day after that and the day after that. My point is this. Anyone struggling with opiate addiction: stimulants really do help. A few weeks ago I had even worse withdrawals so I just took adderall for five days with a few benzos (and yes... a LITTLE tramadol but just enough to keep my pupils normal) and all was well. No need to try this methadone shit which is a worse addiction or get in line for suboxone. Just be smart... unlike me most of the time.
Anyways, with coke I find it's line after line... like the Foo Fighter's song "All My Life". So that's what's up. Anyone notice how us junkies seem to forget/ignore the fact that using every day, several times a day is going to lead to bad things? I'm so stupid... tolerance, money, addiction. Moderation... moderation... moderation.
I'll leave you all and bid thee well. Going back to watching my Phish dvd ("most important band of the 90s" -Rolling Stone). Have a good one, everyone. Everyone, have a good one.
Peace