Are you happy?

No.

I am scared for my future and that of others. Every day grows less and less predictable, the bank account grows smaller, and in general I am falling back into the depression that's plagued me for too long. I am homesick, heartsick, and I don't see a way out of this.
 
i'm severely addicted to adderall, benzos, and oxy's. no i'm not happy because i'm so young and so addicted. doc's no help because he perscribes them (oxys from a long time ago so i get those off the street now).life kinda sucks and i don't see it getting any better :(.
 
Basically I just want to know how happy you guys are in life just generally?

What do you use?

Do you wish you were clean?

Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you?

Obviously drugs are a choice and for every action there is a reaction, don't do the crime if you can't do the time etc. but in your opinion, is it all worth it?

Happier than ever.

Cannabis, buprenorphine (via IV injection). There are other drugs I will use on occasion but I don't use any other drug on a daily or frequent basis.

I am clean. I haven't used heroin in over 22 months. I could use a shower though. ;)

No, I don't. If I had an addictive personality I wouldn't ever be able to help myself. I just happen to have a lot of will power, and somehow successfully quit using heroin. I don't have an addictive drive to any drugs other than heroin so I didn't find it hard to get clean from heroin and not relapse on another drug/dependency.

I can't say what is worth it. I don't think many people would enjoy living my life if that is what you are asking.

I don't really agree with that move.. The answer from The Dark Side is a predictable one, I was looking more for a general opinion.

The best way to deal with stuff like this is via private messages. :)
 
Nope. I use cannabinoids fairly regularly and psychedelics with varying frequency. Do I want to be clean? Nope. Yes, I take precautions to prevent addiction to any substance from taking root. Is it all worth it? The only way anyone can answer that question is if their very old. Only time can give you that sort of answer. Besides if I had the answers to those sorts of questions I doubt I would be on a computer.
 
I use Marijuana, percocets, and really anything i can get. I ponder the "Do you wish you were clean?" question a lot and can't find a 100% answer except for pot(I don't see any issues with pot, and never have). I'm not happy at all, i've had a very traumatic past and i think thats why i do drugs is to get away from all my problems and to just feel good for a few hours. In a way drugs help me cope with life.
 
am i happy???

ehh some of the time i am, i could stand to be much happier though...i battle feelings of emptiness too often...

what drugs i use??

been clean from opiates for 4-5 years but i do occasionally take a very nice dose of ghb precursor in social settings...i dont take precautions because ghb and drugs similar have never tempted me into daily use..

im not sure if true happiness exists..if it did i think people would get complacent and things wouldnt get done..
 
in a word no... happy when im opiated but when im not no.. im not happy
stupid merry go round i cant get off and dont want to yet
 
1. I am not unhappy; I am serene.
2. My addiction is weed. But I do alot of uppers (meph, speed, 4fa, methylen, ethylcathinone, MDMA and such) on the weekends. I like 2-cb/e a lot as well. Mushrooms now and again, although I am not a big fan. But I stay away from opiates and perscription drugs, don't like them.
3. no. maybe.
4. My only precaution is that I don't OD or completly loose my mind. Otherwise I take it as a premise that a drug will always take the best of me.
5. no. maybe.
 
In a discussion of this gravity, it's probably better to define your terms. "Happiness" is not easily defined within one individual's psyche, let alone across cultures, etc.

I have used some sort of recreational psychoactive chemical for more days of my life than not, be it a double espresso or a cigarette or three speedballs a day.

I don't particularly subscribe to the idea that drug users have some sort of "void" in their souls that they are trying, in vain, to "fill" with drugs.

Drugs make a person feel a certain way, without fail (pretty much). If you desire "Feeling/Emotion Z", take "Drug Z," and that feeling is, for all practical purposes, guaranteed. Very little in life is so simple.

Am I happy? Pretty much, these days. It depends on too many factors to begin to chronicle now.

It is very important to make the distinction between happiness and sensual pleasure (especially emotional sensual pleasure), contentment, etc.

Have I always been happy Absolutely not. The old cliche is true: You have to experience Hell to appreciate Heaven, or even Purgatory, for that matter. A lot of proactive soul-searching, and variety of experiences is essential, too, IMO.

Live your life, observe others' lives and their reactions to consequences. If you're paying the slightest bit of attention, something like happiness is bound to befall you, eventually. :)
 
Basically I just want to know how happy you guys are in life just generally?
I am generally happy.

What do you use?
Alcohol, cannabis, zolpidem, benzos- other stuff but not so far in 2010.

Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you?
Yes, I have filled benzo & zolp rxs less often then I could and even left them at a friends to keep me from getting to crazy. A lot of my vitamin, supplement use is geared towards mitigating bad effects from alcohol.

but in your opinion, is it all worth it?
All worth it, no. Then most pursuits aren't all worth it. Its a mixed bag. Curtailing my use makes the times I use a little more rich and minimizes problems but my success at minimizing is so-so.
 
Am i happy? Hmm tricky one, im not happy when im left to my own devices and doing nothing. Like to keep busy. I generally feel down when im not though. I have smoked alot of weed in my time, abused the hell out of MDMA. When Mephedrone was legal done a shit load of that, i really wish i hadnt. I believe that if i hadnt depleted my serotonin as much, life may be more of a happier place for me.

Do i take precautions, yes. I have completly cut down my cannabis use, all it seems to do now is make me feel more fucked up. MDMA, well havnt used it for years....mainly due to the drought in the uk. Have experimented with opiates and many psychadelic drugs also.

I dont think it is all worth it to be honest. Yes i have learnt alot from my experiance, its changed me in some ways. The side effects from using alot of substsances some get more than others. Your sanity should be of number one importance to you. If you feel fucked up, dont get more fucked up. Keep busy, stay postive.

I may dabble with drugs for a long time to come, or i may not. I wont let it take over though.
 
I'm pretty happy in general, I mostly use stimulants and empathogens, which I honestly think improve my quality of life overall by getting to see how interesting life can be. I don't wish to kick drugs any time soon, and I am cautious with the amount I take.
 
Humans are 50/50. They are sad, they are happy. They are male, they are female. They are selfish, they are virtuous.

As such, I am happy sometimes. Other times I am sad.
I let drugs take the best of me, then I grabbed what I could back.

Worth it? Anything is worth anything. Keep making connections that make you happy and don't get you in trouble, and you'll have as happy a life as possible.
 
i had a difficult way coming up like most people i s'pose and always had troubles w/ a lot of depression/bipolar crap. about 3 years ago i felt less and less of the depression that i always felt. i had no clue what this "feeling/emotion" was and one day i realized, damn i think this might be "happy" or something close to it. life was better. my health was better and managed properly for the first time ever (i've had rheumatoid arthritis for 20+ yrs), and i had little to no drama in my life. i smiled a lot and got my first wrinkle, ironically a smile wrinkle, and people i'd known for years noticed there was a big difference.
nothing major happened but things changed. my bf had to move to help w/ family illness. i loved my job but instead of feeling positive about it i was just damn tired. a lot. as gradually as "it" came on, i felt the smiles slipping away. once again i felt sad, depressed and now almost even worse because i knew for sure there is something other than depression, regret, guilt, etc, etc. sometimes i wish i never had that time of, for lack of a better word, happiness.


Basically I just want to know how happy you guys are in life just generally?

not exactly happy, not totally lost in despair like i once was... just middle of the road. i am glad at least i felt happy once so i have hope that i will feel happy again someday.

What do you use?

to get a buzz, a little weed, maybe a couple drinks once in awhile
here's the ironic part. several months after i was Rx'd methadone for chronic pain was when this "happy" time happened. but i'm still on 'dones so that isn't the only reason for the relief from depression. having a compassionate doc who listened and worked with me as far as alternative methods of pain management like acupuncture, massage, meditation definitely helped relieve a lot of anxiety and subsequently, depression.

Do you wish you were clean?

i wish i never dreamed about or felt cravings for heroin. if i tried hard enough and jumped through enough hoops i'm sure i could come up with something. i purposely moved to an area where i didn't know anyone and have just stayed away from any of the usual places.

Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you?

i just keep to myself.

Obviously drugs are a choice and for every action there is a reaction, don't do the crime if you can't do the time etc. but in your opinion, is it all worth it?

excellent question, very difficult to answer because if i'd never done any drugs i'd be different, yes, but would that necessarily mean i'd be different in a positive way? i think drugs showed me a way to survive certain awful events, like how to dissociate so i could kinda watch from the corner and not have to feel anything when various horrible situations were happening.
i didn't realize that surviving the surviving would be as hard or harder than getting through terrible shit when it was happening.

great thread OP
-izzy
 
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