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Are you happy?

BigSlick

BigSlick

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First off I apologize if this is against the rules in any way. I am not looking to start anything here, I am merely fulfilling my own curiosity.

I mostly lurk on bluelight and have been for a while. I noticed the types of drugs used by some individuals is vast and constant. The "How high are you" thread contains page after page of drugs I've never even heard of being taken in very high dosages starting early in the day and continuing throughout.

Undoubtedly drugs have a negative impact of some sort over long periods of time whether it be physical or psychological.

I dabble in a few substances personally and OC is my daily driver. When I have it times are great and when I don't have it times are real tough as I'm sure you all know. I have however noticed that since I began using about a year ago my overall happiness level in general has gone way down. Even beyond the withdrawals there is a certain low that I hit that I don't think I've ever experienced before I started using.

Basically I just want to know how happy you guys are in life just generally?

What do you use?

Do you wish you were clean?

Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you?

Obviously drugs are a choice and for every action there is a reaction, don't do the crime if you can't do the time etc. but in your opinion, is it all worth it?
 
i had to post,,, coz im kinda torn inbetween the two..... im happy for so many things to live for but deeply unhappy within myself for some reason... so ya go fuigure:|
 
nice topic and very well worded btw.
I have to say that nope im not really happy, and i agree with that "there is a certain low" that just wasnt there before i started using.
But i think it might depend on what drugs are being used/abused.
 
well honestly it's kinda a dark topic

im not much of a user but i have definitely experimented with drugs i.e. MDMA, mushrooms, and cannabis mostly and done DXM a few times.

I've only done MDMA and mushrooms a few times but overall i think my use of MDMA has improved my life for the better and i highly appreciate and respect that drug. mushrooms were fun, not life changing in anyway, however i only took an 8th. And as for the DXM.....uhhh.... haha i dunno what to say... not that cool or fun. Cannabis i was a habitual smoker almost everyday for like a year but am on a break :/.

Overall i think my experiments with drugs have improved my life and have taught me better lessons than what (i believe) i would've learned without them. Overall i think i am pretty happy, however i have never really experienced the abuse side of drugs, however i have witnessed it multiple upon multiple times and i also think THAT has taught me to be careful with drugs because honestly they can ruin people.


And is it worth it? i completely think so, my few encounters with MDMA, my preferred drug, have been amazing and i plan on continuing my use slow and steady over the next few years and i plan on experimenting with other psychs but not till later in life.

Hope my little anecdote answers your questions

PEACE
 
In general no. Sadly I make a living off bettering other people's lives but following my own advice is never easy.
agreed, nice topic and well worded
 
I'm happy- amphetamines let me patrol all night, and last night, charge a 272 (sexual assault causing bodily harm..not the guys we want in our smoking parks or behind our raves..so dont hate)
 
Basically I just want to know how happy you guys are in life just generally?
I'm a pretty damned happy person. My friends always comment on how positive I am. Even if things suck, I can see the bright side of things, or find humor in it. I love my life and I have a great time.

What do you use?
Smoke weed every day! Once in a while I might get some coke. Experimenting on random things here and there, not too often. Oh I drink a good amount of alcohol.

Do you wish you were clean?
Not really from pot. I'm only worried that if I get injured at work and do workers comp that they'll drug test me (very likely). I don't smoke at work at all, but they'd probably find a way to say that I got hurt because I was high. So for that I wish I was clean. I wish I had no desire to drink. I like drinking a lot, and drinking leads to blackouts which leads to waking up and finding that I drove home and managed to get a flat tire in during the trip. That's not cool.

Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you?
I try my best to use moderation when drinking. And drink water. I've stopped drinking to get fucked up, that's just bad news. I don't know. I'm currently having to tell myself that I don't need a credit card just to buy booze. I'm not giving in.
 
Looking back at the times that I was using opiates, I would say no. There were certain peaks, sure, but generally speaking I was primarily depressed and unmotivated. Addiction isn't really very much fun after a while and I rode that ride for 2 years man.

My life as a drug user is pretty much over at this point. I just got arrested for my 2nd DUI on drugs so I'm taking this as a logical point to try and clean up my act. I'm not really happy even though I'm clean, but I attribute a lot of that to my concerns over the legal issues and ramifications that will occur from my actions. Honestly I wasn't really happy BEFORE I used drugs.
 
Draigan said:
Uhm I am not very happy. Its not some perminant thing or anything like that... What is though right? I have been superfukinhappy in my life before, but drugs have been making me unhappy for the past 2 years. I use opiates.
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I also use mostly opiates. A possible trend here.
 
I think these are very good questions to be asking. Me myself I am not "happy" in the sense that I wake up each day looking forward all the experiences it has to offer, but I am able to find some satisfaction in my life despite often feeling a bit lost or overwhelmed with what is going on. I think we are fed a bullshit idea of happiness that doesn't seem to be how things turn out.

People who are in a lot of pain may turn to drugs to cope, which may then contribute to other problems and the misery can grow. But drugs do not have to be a necessary source of problems or depression, depending on the relationship one has to them. Take the drugs away from somebody who is in pain, and they may just then be in more pain unless they deal with the underlying issues.

Whether or not it is worth it is really an individual decisions. All sorts of things need to be taken into account; physical and mental health, age, finances, knowledge, etc. And being educated about the substances you are using as well as the dynamics of addiction are also important factors. So for me...I have to say that yes it is worth it. But this answer will quickly change if ever my use were to begin causing me harm as it has in the past.
 
Am I 'happy'? Not particularly.

What do you use? Paxil - 20 mgs a day and lots of alcohol (beer)

Do you wish you were clean? I wish that I could stop abusing alcohol and that the better half was clean (Oxy, Lyrica, Xanax, alcohol).

Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you? I wish that Mr. Boggles did. I have to babysit him a lot and I can't eat or relax until he is sleeping. When he does eventually go to sleep, I check on him every so often to ensure that he's still breathing.

Obviously drugs are a choice and for every action there is a reaction, don't do the crime if you can't do the time etc. but in your opinion, is it all worth it?

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NO.
 
BigSlick said:
Basically I just want to know how happy you guys are in life just generally?
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Some days are better than others, but I'm definitely not as happy as I want to be. I've suffered from major depressive episodes since my early teens.

BigSlick said:
What do you use?
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Dex-amphetamine, diazepam (as prescribed - not recreationally), and alcohol. I'm in the early stages of recovery from a heavy meth addiction.

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Do you wish you were clean?
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I wish I wasn't addicted to meth/amphetamines and benzos. But I don't have any desire to be clean from all drugs. Some are still fun/useful.

BigSlick said:
Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you?
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I'm more careful than I used to be.

BigSlick said:
Obviously drugs are a choice and for every action there is a reaction, don't do the crime if you can't do the time etc. but in your opinion, is it all worth it?
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Nope. I've learned that the hard way. :\
 
Nice thread

Basically I just want to know how happy you guys are in life just generally?

Depressed but optimistic in a very minimal way very stoic about everything

What do you use?
The only drugs I dont use are duster and methedrone

Do you wish you were clean?
Yes and no more toward the yes side

Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you?
Hell no

Obviously drugs are a choice and for every action there is a reaction, don't do the crime if you can't do the time etc. but in your opinion, is it all worth it?
Certainly experiences make up life and the experience I have had with/on/around drugs have made my life "different" and have expanded my social horizons(I can read people like a book)
 
Before I start I'd like to say I was never a happy child, never a happy teen, and now, I am not a happy adult. I dealt with some crazy bad depression as a child (how many 10 year olds want to die?) for no reason (had a generally normal good childhood) which was aggravated as a teen by abusive relationships and deaths of close family members (hardest was my dad). I found happiness in my drugs and although I still was not always 100% satisfied with life, I was not depressed. Well, I had to stop using and now, here I am once again, depressed. Life is fine, and I should be happy, anyone else would be, but I am not.



Basically I just want to know how happy you guys are in life just generally?
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What do you use?
DID use opiates, now I am sober with the exception of an increasing use of alcohol, and the occasional opiate if I could find it.

Do you wish you were clean?
Am clean- happy about that, but not happy about the depression that comes with it.

Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you?
I did, but as we all know that doesn't always work well, hence the reason I am clean.

Is it all worth it?
Probably not. It's worth it in the aspect that I think no one should leave this world without an awesome fuckin story to tell, and that I have, and it did wonders for me being depressed, but it negatively affected those around me, so probably not.

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Basically I just want to know how happy you guys are in life just generally?

im all over the place when it comes to this, if i cant make my self happy, i hold it in untill i buggout then im happyer then ever

What do you use?

budweiser, weed(only da goods), almost any psychedelic, and some other ish

Do you wish you were clean?
sometimes but i look forward to getting fucked up so prolly no, only ya if i want a good job that requires a drug test

Do you take precautions to ensure the drugs don't get the best of you?

i kno ive tried but once im on drugs i forget and forget my limits

Obviously drugs are a choice and for every action there is a reaction, don't do the crime if you can't do the time etc. but in your opinion, is it all worth it?

ya, u only live once and ima keep doing drugz untill i die
 
I've been clean (I was taking a little of everything) this time around for almost 2 months and I'm feeling happy again. I take 1000mg of Depakote a day for bipolar or a generic mental illness since idk if I completely agree with the diagnosis.

When I am on drugs, I am basically suicidal 24/7.
 
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