foodcrisis
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for TL,DR, i found out i'm gonna be able to smoke weed on the property i'm moving some of the time when i thought it was entirely smoke free, so i've been in a lot better of a mood which is enabling me to drink more coffee and smoke more pot with out feeling bad.. i'm wondering what drugs people don't enjoy as much or can't do when they are feeling down or not right about something and what drugs they can do any time even if they are experiencing bad stuff emotionally.
i've been talking about moving to smoke free housing recently on this board a lot with a pretty big weed habbit and how even though i still have a couple years living with my parents where i can smoke as much as i want, knowing i have to cut down has caused me to have some highs where i just don't really feel as good. i've just generally not been feeling as good with my physical well being with what is presented to me.
so anyways, i was uncertain if people were even allowed to smoke on the property where i was moving. so i thought i was gonna have to go to some side street and smoke weed at the tips of cigarettes so i would smell like cigarette smoke if any cops stopped me. i was planning to do this at night and in the winter when i couldn't walk into the woods. there is a sign in woods trail to not go in there at night, so i wouldn't want to get searched smelling like weed. there are areas where i could smoke full joints in the day with out tobacco, but the thing that sucks is i get hallucinations from HPPD when i smoke weed, and if i were to have to walk down the street with cars going home from smoking, i'd get into a mindset where the hallucinations turned off. this was really bugging me out because i love the visual hallucinations.... so anyways, my dad went for a walk the other day and said he saw people smoking cigarettes on the property i'm gonna be moving. he was talking to them and they said you were allowed to smoke cigarettes on the property. there was one of those things they encourage people to put cigarette buns in there in a smoking spot... this put me in such a good mood. i couldn't really drink more than a cup or two of coffee with out my thoughts about having to move getting me nervous. i felt like my life was getting ruined.. like my automoated breathing just doesn't work to make me feel good when i'm in a bad mood.. so anyways, despite that weed isn't allowed on the property. i feel safe to smoke. i love putting like a half gram of weed at the tip of a cigarette and then smoking the rest of the cigarette to hide the smell... i won't be doing this when other people are outside during the times of year people would be out smoking, like it's mostly a place for old people, but they let disabled people in to.. so i feel like i'll be kind of an odd person being a bit younger living with all the elderly. i dont want them to rat me out.. but in the winter when it's snowing and i can't go into the woods. i can just smoke on the property and walk back inside. i was watching all you tube videos of people walking through halls in apartment buildings and from what the building looks like, walking through the halls is probably trippy and the lighting will probably be conducive to me getting high and having hallucinations when i walk back inside from the cold to my appartment. i like temperature shifts, so this has put me in lot better of a mood enabling me to drink more coffee.
so i'm thinking, coffee and weed kind of is something i can only go hard with if i'm in the right mood.. a lot of people say they can't deal with psychedelics if they aren't in the right head space... personally i can kind of flake out and forget what's going on on them.. maybe it's not always wise to trip in a bad mind set, but i'm not sure if it's something that i don't do....
opiates are something people seem to do in shit situations. not sure if anybody has any opinions.... stimulants, i'm not sure, like coke is pretty numbing probably even if you feel bad. i guess you could get addicted to meth with out feeling good. i've never tried it, but i'd think it would be better in a good mood, like probably coke too. i've tried adderall and coke but never meth.. i dunno, opiates is just kind of like turning everything off. i dunno if stimulants really do that. kind of still aware of everything on stimulants and left to dwell imo. maybe they can be a good coping tool. like being high is good, so a person can just not care and deal with stuff better. i'd think with me smoking weed and coffee and not being able to cope with my problems, meth and stimulants wouldn't really help me... i know people traditionally cope with their problems with alcohol. obviously this has different results and some people don't do well....
how do you guys respond to stuff like this? anybody care to write about this stuff? seems like a pretty thought provoking subject... i can't stop having an extra couple cups of coffee for the past few days. not very hardcore drug use, but coffee and weed is a pretty apparent buzz, and gets pretty cool having hardcore HPPD like i do. like i hallucinate more when i'm in a good mood i'm pretty sure.
i've been talking about moving to smoke free housing recently on this board a lot with a pretty big weed habbit and how even though i still have a couple years living with my parents where i can smoke as much as i want, knowing i have to cut down has caused me to have some highs where i just don't really feel as good. i've just generally not been feeling as good with my physical well being with what is presented to me.
so anyways, i was uncertain if people were even allowed to smoke on the property where i was moving. so i thought i was gonna have to go to some side street and smoke weed at the tips of cigarettes so i would smell like cigarette smoke if any cops stopped me. i was planning to do this at night and in the winter when i couldn't walk into the woods. there is a sign in woods trail to not go in there at night, so i wouldn't want to get searched smelling like weed. there are areas where i could smoke full joints in the day with out tobacco, but the thing that sucks is i get hallucinations from HPPD when i smoke weed, and if i were to have to walk down the street with cars going home from smoking, i'd get into a mindset where the hallucinations turned off. this was really bugging me out because i love the visual hallucinations.... so anyways, my dad went for a walk the other day and said he saw people smoking cigarettes on the property i'm gonna be moving. he was talking to them and they said you were allowed to smoke cigarettes on the property. there was one of those things they encourage people to put cigarette buns in there in a smoking spot... this put me in such a good mood. i couldn't really drink more than a cup or two of coffee with out my thoughts about having to move getting me nervous. i felt like my life was getting ruined.. like my automoated breathing just doesn't work to make me feel good when i'm in a bad mood.. so anyways, despite that weed isn't allowed on the property. i feel safe to smoke. i love putting like a half gram of weed at the tip of a cigarette and then smoking the rest of the cigarette to hide the smell... i won't be doing this when other people are outside during the times of year people would be out smoking, like it's mostly a place for old people, but they let disabled people in to.. so i feel like i'll be kind of an odd person being a bit younger living with all the elderly. i dont want them to rat me out.. but in the winter when it's snowing and i can't go into the woods. i can just smoke on the property and walk back inside. i was watching all you tube videos of people walking through halls in apartment buildings and from what the building looks like, walking through the halls is probably trippy and the lighting will probably be conducive to me getting high and having hallucinations when i walk back inside from the cold to my appartment. i like temperature shifts, so this has put me in lot better of a mood enabling me to drink more coffee.
so i'm thinking, coffee and weed kind of is something i can only go hard with if i'm in the right mood.. a lot of people say they can't deal with psychedelics if they aren't in the right head space... personally i can kind of flake out and forget what's going on on them.. maybe it's not always wise to trip in a bad mind set, but i'm not sure if it's something that i don't do....
opiates are something people seem to do in shit situations. not sure if anybody has any opinions.... stimulants, i'm not sure, like coke is pretty numbing probably even if you feel bad. i guess you could get addicted to meth with out feeling good. i've never tried it, but i'd think it would be better in a good mood, like probably coke too. i've tried adderall and coke but never meth.. i dunno, opiates is just kind of like turning everything off. i dunno if stimulants really do that. kind of still aware of everything on stimulants and left to dwell imo. maybe they can be a good coping tool. like being high is good, so a person can just not care and deal with stuff better. i'd think with me smoking weed and coffee and not being able to cope with my problems, meth and stimulants wouldn't really help me... i know people traditionally cope with their problems with alcohol. obviously this has different results and some people don't do well....
how do you guys respond to stuff like this? anybody care to write about this stuff? seems like a pretty thought provoking subject... i can't stop having an extra couple cups of coffee for the past few days. not very hardcore drug use, but coffee and weed is a pretty apparent buzz, and gets pretty cool having hardcore HPPD like i do. like i hallucinate more when i'm in a good mood i'm pretty sure.