Are the weed or opiates destroying my life?

[ljb]

Hey guys,

I was a heavy opiate and weed user. I quit 3-4 months ago only to relapse after getting a terrible cold. I quit the oxy, codeine extraction, weed, caffeine, and cigarettes within about 3 months of each other. When I got sick I started on the panadole and codeine, then went back to the oxy, then started to smoke weed again. I have been struggling for about a month to get my shit back into priority. The past 3 or 4 days I've started smoking weed much more, instead of one time a day (which is amazingly very small for someone who used to blaze all day everyday) I went to two, or three or four times a day.

Now I am trying SO HARD to kick the opiates, but I am the kind of person who suffers from low energy. I am having a very hard time discerning whether or not my motivation and energy is being affected by my opiate use, or by smoking potent weed and waking up feeling shit everyday, I am having VERY strong cravings to get high lately, what is that from? I am really starting to think the weed is fucking it up for me as the past 3 days have been really shit, I've got nothing done and I'm in my final week of Uni and am starting a new full time job next week. I am desperate to get my shit together or I'm going to lose all of this like I did previously in my life.

So, should I kick the weed first and see if my energy picks up, or attempt to see a doc and kick the opiate habit possibly by taking Suboxone OR do I kick both at once and try to deal with the terribly strong cravings that I've been experiencing. Also anyone suffering a similar experience, do you find the weed or opiates really fucks your energy levels? I can quit any drug but I can't handle low energy if I don't feel productive I get extremely depressed and taking drugs is one of those things I did for productivity (surprisingly) I can get alot done on 20mg+ of oxy.
I keep trying to pull my life together then I slip up and I fuck all the hard work I went through for myself again and again. I'm so sick of being a fucking addict it's destroying my life.

Thanks in advance.

 

[T. Calderone]

I would cut down on the weed or just quit altogether. The oxys will be harder to kick and if you can get to a doctor, suboxone will help you get your life back. You don't want to be starting a new job going through opiate withdrawals. Welcome to Bluelight and good luck!

 

[ljb]

Thanks for the reply T. Calderone and the welcome!

I'm quitting weed today, not touching it again. I'm just so confused as to what is doing what. These severe cravings coupled with lack of energy are halting my potential, I pushed myself to head to the gym today but did fuck all. If I was energetic I would have no problem. I'm about to see the doctor, I'm going to mention Suboxone and maybe see if he can prescribe anything to give me at least a small amount of energy to get out of bed. So fucking scared I'm going to ruin my job next week.

EDIT:

Doctors did sweet fuck all aside from joking about what I'm going through, and offering to prescribe me another painkiller to help with this.
I fucking hate doctors. The doctor has made me want to take everything that he has prescribed me at once it's gotten me so angry that no one wants to fucking help a person desperately trying to better their life but failing.
Oh and my "doctor" didn't even know what Suboxone is.

 

[swilow]

^It might seem that no one wants to help you, but there's a lotta people here who will wish to help you. Ultimately, we need to help ourselves I think....

Sounds like weed is demotivating you and making it more difficult to discover the impetus to quit opiates. It would seem that cuting down on weed (so no everyday smoking- once A day at night only!) may make you more desirous of quitting opiates, or remove something which currently prevents you. Me personally, I found that weed (when I am virtually non-tolerant) helped opiate withdrawal- it would cause me to reflct ruthlessly upon my life, made me really not want to use opiates. But everyday weed smoking will cause problems and remove that one positive introspective aspect to it. I'd suggest massively cutting back first.

 

[Ignot]

I think moderators telling you to quit weed first is sage advice, you know you are in trouble when it goes from getting stoned at night, to getting stoned all day. I'm super fucked too. I went from two tokes from a jay to half a gram a day in a matter of two weeks. Weed is a tricky motherfucker, it's very easy to fall into the habit of getting stoned all day

I love weed, but that potent shit gets your head foggy, takes away motivation, no bueno everyday

When I went to work or school, it was so fucking hard to not smoke after such a long day. All my friends in College would be like 'Damn, dude do you always have to smoke after work or class??' It was so fucking hard for me to quit back then. It fucked with me.

I had to go to Jail and Rehab to finally quit my daily weed habit that had been festering in me for years. I know it sounds fucking pathetic, but it's true.

 

[Benzorider]

Stop with the weed, get ur motivation back. Taper the opiates with or without the help of a doctor. Keep it simple...

Dont forget that the weed that is grown today is like 10-15 times stronger than in the 60-70s... i can feel the effects of a spliff with 0,3 g skunk for 3 days!