The reason I like opiates so much is because I feel like they greatly improve my personality. For example when I'm high on opiates I am generally unaffected by the normal stress and anxiety caused by life. I feel like I'm a better person when I'm high. Instead of getting mad over stupid things, I don't let anything get to me. I look around and see all these people stressing over every day life, arguing of stupid things, etc. I just sort of feel like I'm above it all when I take a few mgs of oxy or hydro.
When I'm high, I am able to work out any problems I might have in my relationship with my girlfriend, my family, etc. I am also able to give good advice and help people work out their own problems. I just feel so calm, cool, and collected. Opiates make me an all around pleasant person to be around. They improve my outlook on life, take away my social/generalized anxiety, increase my sense of humor, improve my sexual performance, and give me a complete feeling of contentment.
I kinda feel like opiates have permanantly changed me for the better. Even when I'm not high I'm still more relaxed and mellow these days. I used to have some minor anger management problems, but those problems have pretty much gone away. Withdrawl sucks but it doesn't turn me into an asshole or anything, it just makes me feel really tired and sick for a few days.
Every once in a while my girlfriend will give me a hard time about my usage. She usually says, "why do you feel the need to be fucked up all the time, I don't understand it". What she doesn't understand is that I don't get "fucked up", I'm just taking a substance I enjoy that enhances my life a little bit. I always explain this to her in detail. I think she understands in a way. I always end the argument right away as soon as she brings it up.
I'm not sure what the future will bring, but I know that I have no intention of giving up opiates. They will be a part of my life for several years to come. I feel they are beneficial to me, and I've finally found the high I've been looking for all these years. I still don't have very much of a habit and I'm hoping I can stay near the level I'm at right now. I have no intention of trying more powerful opiates such as heroin. I'm happy with just hydrocodone, oxycodone, hydromorphone, a little methadone, etc.
Not that I see heroin as any worse than the opioids I enjoy, I just don't want to risk the legal consequences, risk becoming addicted much easier, spend tons of money, ruin my relationships, etc.
So.. YES, I think opiates are the closest thing to perfect that you can get. As someone has told me, opiates contain the power of both heaven and hell. So far I've experienced mostly heaven, if/when I start to experience the hell, I guess I'll know it will be time for me to quit.