morphineoxysbenzos
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I always had massive stress/anxiety overload even over the smallest stuff. Just knowing I have something small to do the next day can keep me up for hours with my heart racing. Even something small like having to make a phone call or talk to someone can trigger it. school was hell because i couldn't stop stressing about the next day staying up all night and never got any sleep and i could rarely nap because of my anxiety. i had so much anxiety i would stress about stuff that was 180 days away.
everything stresses me out and i used to use alcohol for it but that it was horrible and i was just covering the symptoms and i was vomitting, acting like an idiot, runing my life, the physical effects, hangovers, the disgusting taste. a small dose of benzos helps but i still kinda feel anxiety on them but it feels like it prevents panic attacks and it saves my life in some situations. ive tried exercise and other meds and everything but my anxiety is so bad that my heart just beats out of my chest uncontrollably all the time and it gives me nausea and drains me. It just feels like i have no energy left from all my anxiety draining me.
i kept telling everyone i needed alcohol to get out of bed or talk to people or feel relief and people just called me an alcoholic even though i didn't like alcohol and i couldn't even stand the taste. It was like i had no urge to use alcohol i just wanted anxiety relief I started using alcohol to relax and sleep and i just couldn't even stomach or look at it anymore. i quit alcohol and tried benzos on their own and it was like a miracle cure. only problem is benzos making me really tired the next day like almost nodding off. i have zero desire to black out on benzos or touch any really strong ones.
everything stresses me out and i used to use alcohol for it but that it was horrible and i was just covering the symptoms and i was vomitting, acting like an idiot, runing my life, the physical effects, hangovers, the disgusting taste. a small dose of benzos helps but i still kinda feel anxiety on them but it feels like it prevents panic attacks and it saves my life in some situations. ive tried exercise and other meds and everything but my anxiety is so bad that my heart just beats out of my chest uncontrollably all the time and it gives me nausea and drains me. It just feels like i have no energy left from all my anxiety draining me.
i kept telling everyone i needed alcohol to get out of bed or talk to people or feel relief and people just called me an alcoholic even though i didn't like alcohol and i couldn't even stand the taste. It was like i had no urge to use alcohol i just wanted anxiety relief I started using alcohol to relax and sleep and i just couldn't even stomach or look at it anymore. i quit alcohol and tried benzos on their own and it was like a miracle cure. only problem is benzos making me really tired the next day like almost nodding off. i have zero desire to black out on benzos or touch any really strong ones.