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Oh man that sounds terrible. I have been through 3 days benzo withdrawl at the worst and I can identify with the Violent electrical shocks where you Feel like you are flying off your bed (well you flew out of your bed fo real). I also experienced getting shocked and terrorized from any sudden noise, even from my air conditioner cycling on. And the crying and rage- thinking people were torturing me on purpose (ridiculous).I would trade this any day with a heroin or fentanyl withdraw. Fentanyl withdraw is the only one that could possibly be worse or equal to that of benzo withdraw but its over quick and your too weak to hurt yourself, hopefully.
How many of you have actually had a confirmed benzodiazepine withdraw? I ask because I have recently and it took 4 months of hospitalization with 2 doctors working with me as I was in delirium. I also had a bad seizure which had it not been in the hospital would have been fatal.
My benzo withdraw experience:
As I already said I had reached full delirium thinking all kind of crazy things. There were 2 doctors working on my case as I had a severe seizure which could have cost me my life had it not been in the hospital.
I was in withdrawl for a very long time. The thing is I was withdrawing from both methadone and benzos. I went with the methadone from 180mg to 60mg in one fucking go, no taper or nothing this after having missed 2 days due to being in delirium from withdrawl from lack of benzos.
By the end of 4 months, I was still experiencing trouble with electric shocks/zaps which happen every time I relax fully. These can originate in the chest, lower end of torso, heart area even (very troubling and painful), etc. These shocks are as if I got zapped with an electric wand or stick. They are very brief but occur just way too often and at very quick intervals, much if not identical to the hiccups, except full body spasm close to jumping in air (when I am close to sleeping, this is what they feel like I am jumping in the air).
I haven't gotten any breaks with the zaps in terms of frequency or strength, until I began using a benzodiazepine, xanax, after all that time, still though it worked and I mean full relief. Once they started I would swallow one if I hadn't already taken one by then, miraculously it worked. Another thing was the methadone was giving me an increase in zaps in both frequency and strength (some are hard enough to throw me off the bed).
I REALLY want to taper off of benzos and am sorry that I ever got myself addicted to them but every medical report says that you will have horrible withdrawal symptoms for over a year after! I wish I wasn’t such a chicken. I have gone through methadone and benzo withdrawl and I would chose the agony of methadone withdrawal over benzo withdrawal ANY DAY! I have also gone through simultaneous withdrawl from both at the same time (only for up to 3 days) And THAT is just too much.
Also, I am 46 and have been an opiate addict (heroin then methadone) and benzo addict for 20 years. In my 20’s and 30’s I could handle withdrawal a bit better. I find that decades of addiction has been hard on my body and when I go through withdrawl in my 40’s, I feel like withdrawl is harder on me, and when my heart starts pounding I now have real fears of having a heart attack or stroke. I didn’t feel on the verge of death from withdrawal when I was younger.