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April getting/staying sober thread v. April showers

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Had a hard day going to my work for this meeting to get into treatment.... One of my sources lives a 3 minute walk from there... The demon inside me even called her and the healthy side of me was soooooo glad she had no opiates... She had clonaz which totally is helping with my bad cravings and insomnia.

Day 6, here I come...... sooooooon !!! :D

~Ms.P
 
408 days today. I am feeling so blessed to have my sobriety today, to have the support of my friends and family, and to be a part of this international network that is bluelight. It's easy to forget how lucky we are. But we are so, so lucky.

I want to thank herby, just a guy, and others for checking in on me over the last difficult few weeks. I am feeling a lot more like myself these days. Here's hoping the progress continues in a positive trajectory, and doesn't make any more lateral moves. ;)
 
^^ Indeed we are addy. Keep it up everyone, and remember - if you slip and fall you can always get back up and keep moving forward!
 
^^ Indeed. I haven't relapsed with substances in 11 months now but mental/behavioral relapses ALL the time. I got a fucked up mind and it's a constant battle keeping myself in line... I just keep doing whatever I can to stay sane.

another 24.
 
Jumped from 3 mg sub 13 days ago now.....kicking is better but insomnia and feeling like i was beat with a baseball bat on back of thighs...insomnia is worse part.. only maybe 2 hours a night and its taking a huge....HUGE toll on my mental state....if i can go 2 more weeks im in clear so hopefully...ill make it. thought about using today...was goin to drive to nashville today just to use(3 hour drive from my location) but car battery dead so thank god.....like i was meant to stay home...please april leg me see may....please
 
Got 12 days off opiates today. Can't wait to go to my meeting tonight. Need some reassurance and support.
 
Since starting methadone I have begun to get my family's trust back, I'm spending more time with my kids, I got a good job.... I'm also way more responsible with money ( for the first time in a long time my bank balance is in the plus and i don't owe everyone and thier brother money * ducking people sucks * ).

Life without heroin is better than I ever expected.... it's been 5 years on dope, and 5 more beyond that with everything else IV ( dilaudid/ oxy / morphine )..... i forgot how it felt to be a regular person.
 
I've stopped counting the days. Gonna start counting the months now. I've been clean for only a little over a month but I'm happy with myself. This is my longest time clean in over 4 years:)

Good luck to everyone jus starting. You can do it, I have faith in you all!

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I've got 11 days off opiates and counting today...still feel a bit shitty (Haha...pun intended) but functional. At least physically. Mentally...eh not so much. I can do this....? :/
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IMO the mental part is what's the worst. I'm still suffering from it but that's because I've been going through some really rough shit this past 30+ days. But yes, you can do it. Stay positive, things will get better with time
 
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Thanks guys : ) looking forward to seeing two weeks on Sunday. would Love to celebrate but of course the first way that pops into my head is to celebrate by...u guessed it! Getting high. What's your favorite way to celebrate sober?
 
Being thankful im not sick...thats a celebration on its own....its day 14 for me today and worst is over...insomnia still a bitch..but all physical symptoms gone can finally eat normal...and feel normal..(a little fatigued of course) but not hopeless anymore. keep it up 13 days is great celebrate being human again...feels kinda wrong i know. but it will eventually flee and all will be good again
 
BOOYEAH!! I made it to Day 7!!! :D

One week opiate free!!
I think this is the longest I've gone without in almost 2 years. ^^

My friend's Clonidine really helped with restless legs. I didn't think it would do anything lol.
Good thing he gave me 6 x .1 tablets of them. So for the next few days I might use them if my legs act up again..
Too bad he didn't tell me he had them before, on like day 2 or 3, that would have been more helpful for the sweating, and tossing and turning.
I just wish I could eat, and I'm still sore like a mofo. This no apatite thing is lame. Its like, I'll feel hungry, and the moment I get up to make food, my hunger completely disappears, and I wanna just go sit back down. Oh well, i know it should fix itself eventually..... :\

KEEP IT UP EVERYONE YOU'RE DOING GREAT!!

Much love to you all!! <3
~Ms.P
 
GettingClean said:
Thanks guys : ) looking forward to seeing two weeks on Sunday. would Love to celebrate but of course the first way that pops into my head is to celebrate by...u guessed it! Getting high. What's your favorite way to celebrate sober?
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sounds like you and I jumped off at same time. took an extended vaycay to another province where I don have access has made it possible for me but still mentallly feelin like crap. Rele wanting to go home but nervous if ill be able to keep it clean :/. weed has been my saviour and a few other comfort meds thas fo sho.
 
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