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April getting/staying sober thread v. April showers

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April 2nd will be three weeks and three days clean off all opiates including any maintenance, and actually I had to think about how long it has been, so I am finally losing count! Oh and no cigs for six days!

As for you Slayn, there are plenty of threads on Sober Living and The
Dark Side on Bluelight that will have the information you are looking for.
Good for you and good luck!

Props to everyone who is kicking their bad habits!
 
I was going to be 17 days clean from all substances except marijuana, cigarettes, and coffee. Sadly a few hours ago I relapsed and drank a shot of whiskey and took 140mg of vyvanse. 16 days is the longest I've gone in the past year without using except my one one month clean. Other than that the longest has been 12 days, which was more because I had checked myself into rehab. This 16 days clean however was done with some willpower, but most of all was that I looked for the signs the universe gave me and followed them into a positive direction instead of negative. I feel like addicts tend to get a lot of messages from the universe just before they fuck up that they ignore/deny, but we know they're there, I've found if you can pick up on the signs that you can find them in most anything and as long as you follow them into the light things will work out. I had been following these signs while I was clean and as long as I did what was truly right things worked out, however once I made the first mistake of ignoring a sign for desire things went down hill. Anyway, I hope I dot continue using after this slip up. If anyone has suggestions on how I can keep myself from falling back into the cycle PLEASE GIVE THEM TO ME.
 
So far so good, April is shaping up to be a good month. MMT is going well for me, no more being sick and scrambling around for cash to get off sick. About to start a job at $12/hr as well. Got a few kinks still from when i was using to work out but overall life is so much better now. I know I'm still very dependent on an opioid drug, but it is legal and i'm getting counselling.
 
23 days clean. Things are looking up. My daughter will be moved closer to me tomorrow, I start my job on Monday and my fiancé comes home from rehab on Wednesday. I'm very happy today, a little bored, but happy none the less
 
SteeleyJ said:
So far so good, April is shaping up to be a good month. MMT is going well for me, no more being sick and scrambling around for cash to get off sick. About to start a job at $12/hr as well. Got a few kinks still from when i was using to work out but overall life is so much better now. I know I'm still very dependent on an opioid drug, but it is legal and i'm getting counselling.
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Yeah, while being on methadone isn't the ideal option.. I mean, of course it'd be nice to be off everything, but until that happens.. at least it gives you some much needed stability. Allows you to function in the real world, get a job, save money, not have to worry about the crazy stress of using.

So, good for you man. Keep it up.
 
Just spent the last few days water parking, hitting sick museums, great art, fantastic food, and a great city.. chi town.. Obama's motorcade when a flying by three feat away.. springs here. I'm doing well.. got a little triggered as I walked past the active junkies.. but i did well.. a lady all sortsa spun got WHACKED. including close to my son (not a joke for real spun a ton) glad the thousand mile stare of an ex junkie, the I will get a bite to eat and a nap and never look back after I send you to the cosmos if you even move to cross that line, cleared all that shit out without any bullshit... but yeah a little time to recharge the batteries and I feal great.. oh and my dream job seems to have fallen into my lap.. and it pays more than I need and I still have enough time before it starts to finish my book.

Hell and gone from where I started this amazing turn in life <3
 
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Yeah, while being on methadone isn't the ideal option.. I mean, of course it'd be nice to be off everything, but until that happens.. at least it gives you some much needed stability. Allows you to function in the real world, get a job, save money, not have to worry about the crazy stress of using.

So, good for you man. Keep it up.
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Thanks man, I definitely will keep going. Life is so much better now... I almost don't know what to do with myself, or the money. Thats why I'm happy I'm gunna be working full time, it will keep my mind occupied and pay decent ( especially everything after 40 hours * $18/hr * ).
 
I have a family ( 3 kids ) to support and suboxone didn't hold me very well ( mentally I still felt off, and it made me depressed for some reason ). On methadone it would be harder to use because of the drug tests, but even if I could... I don't want to, it holds me very well. So i'll deal with the scary level of dependency for the stability it provides to give myself, and more importantly my kids, a better life.
 
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Thanks man, I definitely will keep going. Life is so much better now... I almost don't know what to do with myself, or the money. Thats why I'm happy I'm gunna be working full time, it will keep my mind occupied and pay decent ( especially everything after 40 hours * $18/hr * ).
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Making money and actually keeping it, is one of the best things about being clean, man. It's awesome. You can pay your bills, buy things you want and can enjoy.. it feels good.
 
Yea before as soon as I got cash in my hand I was like fuck paying that bill..... call the dopeman for a half. Feels good though. Are you doing the MMT thing too? I thought I saw that in another thread.
 
^^^Yeah definitely, i think most people if they've been on BL long enough learn who knows what they are talking about and who is real and gives a shit about the harm reduction goal of bluelight.
I've been on BL a long time, total 10 years with 2 separate screen names.
 
Having a bad night. Weekend nights are always hard, but this one is harder.

I'll be ok, just a down moment. I'm getting better at recognizing the causes of these moments and how to avoid them.
 
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