so, i was coming off 5 months of using bupe; started off at 16MG and was down to about 4-8MG/daily before slipping up. I start to slip and was using 1-2x's a week before it eventually went back to using daily.
I first started buying 40's - 3 for the usual ONE ZERO ZERO! I was blasting a 40 a shot and "feeling good". well, soon it was blasting 2 40's, and then 3 40's and then before you know it my addiction was back to where it was before and costing me WAY TOO MUCH DAILY; still is to this day.
next week I will be working REMOTE all week; I plan on kicking this fucker COLD TURKEY, again! I am NOT using bupe again; it did zero for me. well, it kept me away from dope but it still made me ADDICTED TO OPIATES daily; so what is the point? I want OFF EVERYTHING! I am sick of having to take something daily to get me by.
we'll see how this goes; I have a really ripping habit right now, so let's see how this detox works. I have weed, xanny, sleeping pills, NyQuil, Phenibut and anything else needed to ease the detox. let's see how it all goes.
again, I read my last post and it actually saddened me; just shows how WHACKED I was last time I wrote it. funny because it's when I first started shooting again and I dont even remember writing it; goes to show how good the dope was at that time vs. what it is now and how my tolerance is now! sad.. just SAD!
I am actually SNIFFING lately instead of shooting; my veins are SHIT! I cant have that anymore; I am done. problem w/ sniffing is I am sniffing DOUBLE what I would normally shoot; that sucks. but it's what I need to do.. plus, it's only 3 more days of "sniffing" before I try and kick this COLD FUCKING TURKEY!
I will surly update myself.
wish me luck.
also, any suggestion you have, please let me know.
I first started buying 40's - 3 for the usual ONE ZERO ZERO! I was blasting a 40 a shot and "feeling good". well, soon it was blasting 2 40's, and then 3 40's and then before you know it my addiction was back to where it was before and costing me WAY TOO MUCH DAILY; still is to this day.
next week I will be working REMOTE all week; I plan on kicking this fucker COLD TURKEY, again! I am NOT using bupe again; it did zero for me. well, it kept me away from dope but it still made me ADDICTED TO OPIATES daily; so what is the point? I want OFF EVERYTHING! I am sick of having to take something daily to get me by.
we'll see how this goes; I have a really ripping habit right now, so let's see how this detox works. I have weed, xanny, sleeping pills, NyQuil, Phenibut and anything else needed to ease the detox. let's see how it all goes.
again, I read my last post and it actually saddened me; just shows how WHACKED I was last time I wrote it. funny because it's when I first started shooting again and I dont even remember writing it; goes to show how good the dope was at that time vs. what it is now and how my tolerance is now! sad.. just SAD!
I am actually SNIFFING lately instead of shooting; my veins are SHIT! I cant have that anymore; I am done. problem w/ sniffing is I am sniffing DOUBLE what I would normally shoot; that sucks. but it's what I need to do.. plus, it's only 3 more days of "sniffing" before I try and kick this COLD FUCKING TURKEY!
I will surly update myself.
wish me luck.
also, any suggestion you have, please let me know.
