April 17th 2009

Yesterday got charged with DWI. Going to court Wednesday. Getting a good Jew lawyer. Hoping thing work out. Don't need this shit.

Boring day today. Worked. Was called in because they needed me. Decided to go in despite not sleeping right and being exhausted. Thought about mundane existence all day.

Light in the darkness was at 11:30am. Good friend stopped by. Managed to get something before lunch that helped with my mood and the depression.

Right now not feeling to good. Really miss my girlfriend. Just want someone to hold me right now, rarely feel this way...

Tired of family attitude towards my depression. Don't they know that something is going wrong inside me?

Canceled doctors appointment for tomorrow. To much needs to be done at job.

Hoping for miracle... And ordinary moment...

 

Your health is important. Work is important too, but you probably shouldn't be canceling your doctors' appointments to go to work.

 

Need money. People at job need help.

 

DWI? Alcohol or drugs?

 

Alcohol.

 

I always told you that you gotta stop drinkin n drivin darlin! Imsorry to see that it happened to you, I knew you did it alot but i always had my fingers crossed that you stayed outa trouble with it.

O yea lol. And I still didnt pay the ticket I got when me and you were racing to G that one night. In like November.I prolly got warrants up by you lol. But shit even I know those cops are dicks is wat Im sayin. I know youll be straight tho. you handle your shit. you got time before anything hits the fan anyways, legal system takes forever to actually do shit.

Much love my dear friend.

 

Thanks Lacey. Appreciate the words. Do need to stop drinking period. Taking toll on body. Serious business.