Went to doctors today. Really good doctor. Been giving me acupuncture for free. Seeing him again in a week. Might be looking at medication for insomnia and anxiety.
Prior to doctors, got head on clear. Drove to Middletown. Copped a few bags. Forgive me for using, but I had to. I needed an ordinary moment.
Cracked open paper hourglass. Poured the sands of time into a silver chalice. Golden sustenance and poison transmuted. Loaded nectar into sword. Weapon in hand, pierced my being. Rose bloomed in a golden hue. Drive the thorn deep. Wave of calm sweeps over me like tide of ocean. Warmth. Peace. Serenity. Spiral into bliss as the mind circus thats been raging subsides. Light a cigarette. Breath it in and breath it out. Time to go home. Feels like I am home.
Got up with girlfreind and friend. Wonderful time. Laughing. Smiling. Talking. Veil of depression lifted by the presence of the one I love. Eventually go home. Loving charm. Desire. Connection. Stir of wonderful emotions. Our love manifests itself physically. Beautiful. Perfection. True love.
Girlfriend made comment that made me smile today in store. Was looking at washing machines for some random reason. Told her friend she better get used to using one. Girlfriend turned around and said how about when we get married, will you make me wash cloths... Could'nt help but kiss her forehead and tell her I would dry clean my clothes. No laundry for her.
Don't know about life sometimes. Ups and downs. Always feel like be trapped inside a jar with this bipolar condition. Emotions raging from light to dark. Love it though. Allows me to experience despairs and ecstasies no other can. Including gray in between. High off a deep depression. High off a simple thing of life.
Right now now calm and numb. Savoring the ordinary moment. Future is uncertain still...
Prior to doctors, got head on clear. Drove to Middletown. Copped a few bags. Forgive me for using, but I had to. I needed an ordinary moment.
Cracked open paper hourglass. Poured the sands of time into a silver chalice. Golden sustenance and poison transmuted. Loaded nectar into sword. Weapon in hand, pierced my being. Rose bloomed in a golden hue. Drive the thorn deep. Wave of calm sweeps over me like tide of ocean. Warmth. Peace. Serenity. Spiral into bliss as the mind circus thats been raging subsides. Light a cigarette. Breath it in and breath it out. Time to go home. Feels like I am home.
Got up with girlfreind and friend. Wonderful time. Laughing. Smiling. Talking. Veil of depression lifted by the presence of the one I love. Eventually go home. Loving charm. Desire. Connection. Stir of wonderful emotions. Our love manifests itself physically. Beautiful. Perfection. True love.
Girlfriend made comment that made me smile today in store. Was looking at washing machines for some random reason. Told her friend she better get used to using one. Girlfriend turned around and said how about when we get married, will you make me wash cloths... Could'nt help but kiss her forehead and tell her I would dry clean my clothes. No laundry for her.
Don't know about life sometimes. Ups and downs. Always feel like be trapped inside a jar with this bipolar condition. Emotions raging from light to dark. Love it though. Allows me to experience despairs and ecstasies no other can. Including gray in between. High off a deep depression. High off a simple thing of life.
Right now now calm and numb. Savoring the ordinary moment. Future is uncertain still...