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nann

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i've been reading so much on the site for a bit now. some out of being able to relate, some out of curiosity and in turn, being sucked in. a family member recently died of oding on Imodium...which i never really heard of. looking up info on that is what led me to this site at all, which i think is ultimately a good thing (finding this site, that is. not the death...obviously).

personally though, i think i have an alcohol issue. 'think' as in, i know that i probably do...but maybe just don't want to fully accept/admit it. ??? i've been drinking super regularly for 12yrs. for the past 3yrs, it's basically daily, between 3-6 cocktails a night. in my head, that's not realllllllyyy an issue, right? except that the thought of taking a night off makes me anxious. i'm gainfully employed, a parent, in a stable relationship...i don't drive when i'm drinking, i wake up in the morning on time, i'm mindful of my hygiene. i basically feel like i'm constantly in a battle. trying to decide if this is ok or not. i haven't come to a conclusion yet.

on that note, hello.
 
oh man. i'm really sorry to hear of your loss. that's really sad.
we warn people a lot about the risks of abusing loperamide, but i've not heard (directly) of people dying from it.
my condolences.

welcome to bluelight, it's good to have you here - and i hope you can get some good information and support from the community here.
there are certainly a lot of us that have dealt with addiction and the issues that surround it, so you're definitely in the right place.
<3
 
Thanks for that. I'm quite sure that my 'problem' isn't too much of an issue yet. 'Yet' being the key word. I'm aware that it's all a slippery slope though. It's my mindset that is alerting me to potential upcoming issues, so it'll be nice to have a sounding board of people who can potentially relate.
 
yeah, absolutely.

our recovery forums are full of people dealing with similar things.
sober living is a subforum totally dedicated to discussion of achieving - and remaining - sober.

definitely lots of bluelighters will be able to relate. i'm sure of that. :)
 
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