I got a job and the first two weeks of it is consisting of a trip to a 200km away town to do a training. I'm staying at a hotel with a roomate. The second week will start this Monday. We were allowed to come back home this weekend.
So basically I'm surrounded by people the whole day. The training eats up 6 to 7 hours a day, then there is some activity to do after the training, usually followed by socializing. Honestly I would like to stay at the fucking hotel watching the 200 channel TV but I dont want to be the asshole who rejects the invitations. Then I gotta come back to the room to sleep with a roomate. I'm an only child so I never had siblings to share bedrooms with and this is new to me
There is actually quite some moments I have fun and some people I really do like, but godammit how I feel EXHAUSTED around people. Even in moments I'm having fun I feel suffocated. This is nothing new to me, I've always been like this but I never wanted so badly to have a few moments, like this, of feeling the bliss of being by myself.
"nothing suffocates you more than the passing of everyday human events"
So basically I'm surrounded by people the whole day. The training eats up 6 to 7 hours a day, then there is some activity to do after the training, usually followed by socializing. Honestly I would like to stay at the fucking hotel watching the 200 channel TV but I dont want to be the asshole who rejects the invitations. Then I gotta come back to the room to sleep with a roomate. I'm an only child so I never had siblings to share bedrooms with and this is new to me
There is actually quite some moments I have fun and some people I really do like, but godammit how I feel EXHAUSTED around people. Even in moments I'm having fun I feel suffocated. This is nothing new to me, I've always been like this but I never wanted so badly to have a few moments, like this, of feeling the bliss of being by myself.
"nothing suffocates you more than the passing of everyday human events"
