God....alcohol makes me a horrible person. I haven't drank in 7 months because ive been in Iraq, but I'm vowing to myself to stick to other drugs. Opiates and uppers make me so much more friendly and insightful. I can write better, feel more empathy for people, and get more tasks done than when I'm sober. But alcohol turns me into a monster. I think every idea that pops into my head is an amazing one and I have to execute it or I'll regret it in the morning. Holy shit is that always wrong or what. It also renders me completely useless for the entire next day, and turns you into a fat ass. I can't wait to be not sober again, but hopefully alcohol isnt the gateway.