I have been a meth user for the most part of 17 years. I have went from Casual usage to Selling an ounce and a half a day. This all happened in the course of a few months. I have went from 16 up until now which is 33. It is at this point in my life that I feel it is time to quit. I don't want people to assume I am worthless no good or any of the like. I have 2 college degrees, 3 professional certifications and until very recently had a full time job. I worked 8 to 5 for 5 days each week. I did all that while being a full blown user nothing casual about it. I would go through personally with my girlfriend at the time about 1 gram a day. I also would like to add that if I had a way to verify it I would, I am as honest and trustworthy. I dont lie, cheat, steal and have trouble with people that are like that. I have went through up to a year of sobriety at certain points of my time using.
Some might ask if you seem to function why would you quit if they are the curious type. Well even though I never let it affect my morals, just about everyone I know that does it can't say the same. My last girlfriend cheated on me and lied to me then blamed or treated me like I was the one to do it. I know that is directly related to drug use. So to answer that question more directly...I am quiting more for the people around me and because they, after a while, loose themselves to it and forget who they are and what is morally correct. As a side not my ex I have known for 18 years prior to dating. She has spent time in jail, but that is something I have been both fortunate and lucky for I have not. I have two kids one girl and one boy. From my past experience I know not having my girlfriend will make it a little worse on me but I will manage.
I mean as I type this I am smoking my last of what I had. So when I asked if anyone wanted to tag along I mean follow along with my posts as I sober up. I will post at least 1 to 2 times a day even when I can't open my eyes hardly. Readers must take into consideration that I will be bitchy at times and down right offensive but if that don't bother you then please read along. I figure it might be beneficial to both the forums and I. The readers will have a chance to read first hand how it is for someone to sober up after being a hard core user for a long time. An it will give me the illusion that I have some sort of company and might not get the really low alone feeling as bad. Post up if you guys have any questions of comments because the real adventure don't start till day after tomorrow. That is when it will get really rough because it will be out of my system for the most part.
Some might ask if you seem to function why would you quit if they are the curious type. Well even though I never let it affect my morals, just about everyone I know that does it can't say the same. My last girlfriend cheated on me and lied to me then blamed or treated me like I was the one to do it. I know that is directly related to drug use. So to answer that question more directly...I am quiting more for the people around me and because they, after a while, loose themselves to it and forget who they are and what is morally correct. As a side not my ex I have known for 18 years prior to dating. She has spent time in jail, but that is something I have been both fortunate and lucky for I have not. I have two kids one girl and one boy. From my past experience I know not having my girlfriend will make it a little worse on me but I will manage.
I mean as I type this I am smoking my last of what I had. So when I asked if anyone wanted to tag along I mean follow along with my posts as I sober up. I will post at least 1 to 2 times a day even when I can't open my eyes hardly. Readers must take into consideration that I will be bitchy at times and down right offensive but if that don't bother you then please read along. I figure it might be beneficial to both the forums and I. The readers will have a chance to read first hand how it is for someone to sober up after being a hard core user for a long time. An it will give me the illusion that I have some sort of company and might not get the really low alone feeling as bad. Post up if you guys have any questions of comments because the real adventure don't start till day after tomorrow. That is when it will get really rough because it will be out of my system for the most part.