burntserkits
Bluelighter
Hey everyone I had to drop in and say hello to my BL friends and fill you all in on my life as of late. I had been a long time regular poster that just "fell off the face of the Earth." My sobriety and sanity both came crashing down on me about eight months or so ago. I started using opiates and meth heavily again and my world spiraled out of control. I lost my home and all of my material possessions. My life completely fell apart and I found myself homeless and without any friends or family. My life became unmanageable and so chaotic that I finally had to seek professional help.
I showed up at my mom's two weeks ago and came clean with her about what was going on. She said I could stay with her for a day or so while I came up with a plan for becoming/remaining sober. So my partner and I loaded our car with our only Earthly belongings and blindly headed to Little Rock to a rehab center. We weren't sure they'd be able to accept either of us, let alone both. By the grace of a higher power, we were both able to enter treatment and began a rapid detox using naltrexone (sp?). For those of you not familiar with this treatment, it purges 90% of opiates from your system in three days. Essentially doing in three days what would take your body and mind about four months to accomplish.
I started the treatment and those first three days were HELL. I was having to take muscle relaxers and benzos every two hours round the clock to manage the WDs and its related complications. On the fourth day I felt and acted like a completely new man. I was in a state of bliss that no drug could ever bring me to. I was seeing life in a whole new light and felt optimisitic about living a new and manageable life for the first time in nearly a year. Things were going to change and I deeply knew and felt this. It was amazing. I spent four more days in the detox center and am now home in north AR until tomorrow when I return to Texarkana to visit family and friends I had lost contact with. Then I start a transitional program in another (intentionally unnamed) city. I will begin a program that, if successful, will provide me with an apartment within 30-90 days at a ridiculously low rate.
My life is once again on track and I feel better than I possibly ever have. I have regained my family and friends but most importantly myself and my dignity. I am unbeleivably happy and healthy attending meetings and enjoying life on life's terms. Things are all uphill from here and I have nothing left to hide. I want to thank all of you who had private messaged me with concern about my whereabouts and want you all to know that I am alive and well and you guys will gradually see me posting like crazy again. I love all of you and want to tell the still struggling that there is hope and there are programs out there to help you overcome addiction...you just have to want it. I look forward to hearing from ya guys and I am here for you in every possible way. Thanks again and I hope I didn't bore ya to tears with my story. Peace and love to all of you my friends and family of BL!
I showed up at my mom's two weeks ago and came clean with her about what was going on. She said I could stay with her for a day or so while I came up with a plan for becoming/remaining sober. So my partner and I loaded our car with our only Earthly belongings and blindly headed to Little Rock to a rehab center. We weren't sure they'd be able to accept either of us, let alone both. By the grace of a higher power, we were both able to enter treatment and began a rapid detox using naltrexone (sp?). For those of you not familiar with this treatment, it purges 90% of opiates from your system in three days. Essentially doing in three days what would take your body and mind about four months to accomplish.
I started the treatment and those first three days were HELL. I was having to take muscle relaxers and benzos every two hours round the clock to manage the WDs and its related complications. On the fourth day I felt and acted like a completely new man. I was in a state of bliss that no drug could ever bring me to. I was seeing life in a whole new light and felt optimisitic about living a new and manageable life for the first time in nearly a year. Things were going to change and I deeply knew and felt this. It was amazing. I spent four more days in the detox center and am now home in north AR until tomorrow when I return to Texarkana to visit family and friends I had lost contact with. Then I start a transitional program in another (intentionally unnamed) city. I will begin a program that, if successful, will provide me with an apartment within 30-90 days at a ridiculously low rate.
My life is once again on track and I feel better than I possibly ever have. I have regained my family and friends but most importantly myself and my dignity. I am unbeleivably happy and healthy attending meetings and enjoying life on life's terms. Things are all uphill from here and I have nothing left to hide. I want to thank all of you who had private messaged me with concern about my whereabouts and want you all to know that I am alive and well and you guys will gradually see me posting like crazy again. I love all of you and want to tell the still struggling that there is hope and there are programs out there to help you overcome addiction...you just have to want it. I look forward to hearing from ya guys and I am here for you in every possible way. Thanks again and I hope I didn't bore ya to tears with my story. Peace and love to all of you my friends and family of BL!
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