Anyone out there who rolled in the very early 90's

[rm1x]

I'll reanswer this with these questions


1. How have you been able to successfully continue to use it after so many years? Have you limited frequency of use?

I got to a point at one stage I would take between 10-15 eccies in a night, this was back in the 90's and I realised it was'nt really having any effect on me except for making me act stupid and look messy. Now I just use it once or twice a year, one pill per session and I have a blast.


2. Have you ever had any significant breaks during your use? What was the longest break you have had? How has this effected the experience when you had it again?

I had about 2 years off. My best mates (they are twins) and myself were at a party and I was chatting to some random when all of a sudden he whispered to me that he was getting some pills and asked if I wanted any. I scored 3 beige safe sex and we ended up being so stoned from them that we could'nt make it to the valley LOL The actual experince was like my first time, it was truely amazing, I had all of the empathatic qualities as my first tablet, major eye wobbles and we ended up sitting on some cliffs overlooking the brisbane river and chatted until the sun came up. The break made the pill feel like my first time


3. Have you ever had any major problems caused from such a long period of use?

I think my memory is damaged from my mdma use, no doubt I also had a pretty long run with speed as well, so it may also be from that.



4. After so many years of use, do you find it is still rewarding?

When I use it on rare occasions and in moderation, as someone said, moderation is the key to using this drug for a long time.
I will only take eccies if I have a safe environment and somewhere I can dance. Sorry guys I am not that spiritual, I really only use it to dance on LOL
But I guess I find it rewarding to dance on, to feel free and to bust out those funky moves hahaha

take care everyone

 

[Bent]

Samadhi: I'm only 28... but don't hold that against me, I started early, and besides, I feel like I'm 38 some mornings

(I look like I'm 21 though, still get carded occasionally. Go figure - must be the preservative effects of long-term substance use )

Shit, you could be me...I'm exactly the same on all fronts!

 

[Cowboy Mac]

interesting to read your comments nanobrain and rm1x.

 

[phase_dancer]

Re: rather than just saying yes...

1. How have you been able to successfully continue to use it after so many years? Have you limited frequency of use?

After the honeymoon period of around 6 months, we both decided to give it a rest. A year later we treated ourselves with the first E from a different source. It was OK, but weak. Pregnancy then shelved the whole thing for another 15 months, until the baby suddenly refused to be feed from the titty. We then used moderately and intermittently, often due to limited availability.

2.Have you ever had any significant breaks during your use? What was the longest break you have had? How has this effected the experience when you had it again?

After a year or so, our contact left town and we concentrated on saving money to buy a house, so we rarely even thought of E for about 3 years or more. I then had a close friend visit who arrived to help prepare for our up-coming wedding. This guy and I go way back, so when he said he'd never tried MDMA but would really like to, I said I would like to be able to help, but I had lost contact with the suppliers I knew. Although it was his first visit to Aus, he made a couple of phone calls and an hour later we were set. Spesh & I kept our pills for the 2 weeks we spent on a tropical Island, but the the wedding itself was fab, and my mate got to roll (literally) around in the garden with 2 beautiful ladies

Many things possibly contributed, but I found the long spell of abstinence almost enabled it to feel like the first time again. I could sense the smell of happiness. The setting was perfect; I was with my girl -my wife now after 9 years together, and our best friends who lived on the Island and who we hadn't seen for a year. Everything was just right and it was all just so much fun - I still remember almost every moment of the day.

3. Have you ever had any major problems caused from such a long period of use?

Relatively speaking; not really. Our interest in MDMA returned when I bumped into an old friend from our early E days. There was still no supplier in town to speak of, although within the next 18 months this changed radically, as it did in many areas at the time; late 1994. After a hectic year with cocaine, a good 8-10 month long abstinence resulted. When things were good again, we chose to only take E, no coke!

We only went overboard on a couple of occasions with long repeated dosings, but frequency of use did increase dramatically for a while. Working in production, we were always being offered something. Life was fast, continually festive, and rewarding. Our relationship, almost destroyed by the coke period, was rejuvenated and revived. We had our first E together after our break, and never looked back. Our place became the party centre of the town, and it was nothing to do 3-4 nights straight partying with a couple of hours sleep during the day. My girl also worked 9-5, which meant she got less sleep. But her previous 10 years of night shift nursing probably helped a bit there

This went on until a big shakeup. Not health wise, but financial. Not that our drug habits were costing too much; we simply lost big money on an event, and in the sobering post event moments we decided to slow things down again and recoup. Shortly after that we began doing HR work, and once that was going, our drug taking diminished very quickly. In those early days, although no-one ever took E while doing HR work at events, it was after an outreach operation -debriefing- where the odd bit of E found good purpose. Some of the poor inexperienced helpers were quite perturbed by some of the interventions they first faced, and found their drug of choice helped when recounting the details and how an incident may have left them feeling. These days debriefing is very different. Team Leaders are very responsible and well experienced in the counseling of Peer Helpers. The same outcome is achieved without the need for drugs - traumatic experience ->discussion -> personal resolve - although the odd un-winding drink of alcohol seems to be well appreciated by some.

4. After so many years of use, do you find it is still rewarding?

In small, very occasional doses I find it can be rewarding and definitely fun with special company, but it took quite a bit to discover and convince myself this is the case. We all seem to equate intoxication with a good E experience, but I found the essence is contained within a very small amount. So for me, a small amount gives pleasure while the distracting intoxication of a larger dose is just that - distracting.

In summary, I feel MDMA has it's place, and has been of considerable benefit as a self prescribed communication tool. It has enabled us to get through difficult times by reaching deeper and talking rather than sulking. But by the same token, if MDMA ever disappeared completely, I would have more concern for others than for myself. That is, I wouldn't feel the need to grab the first replacement that came along in desperation for an empathy fix.

 

[BongoBongo]

Yes I've been able to consume rather well over the years. I've never really had any problems what so ever, probably due to the fact that I never "over-did" it and always drank heaps of fresh juices prior to and post rolling. Eating well and training has, in my opinion, helped balance things out. The use does vary from every weekend to once every 6 months......it really depends upon what is around at the time.

In relation to breaks probably the longest break would be around 9 months, after which the effect was rather strong. But the were safe sex after all.

Major Problems?....Nope, perhaps the complete opposite! An expanded conciousness and experience skill set with enhanced empathetic undertones have contributed to both emotional maturity and evolving spirituality.

Do I still find it rewarding........you betcha ! However I consider myself a lightweight in that 1/2 then 1/2 an hour later is just right for me.

In all I have found MDMA to be a most wonderful thing.....the total antithisis of fear and the embracement of diversity.

Go to a pub and see argo, go to a dance par-tay and see love. I know where I want to be.

 

[rm1x]

I agree with you there phase_dancer, I prefer to take my pills in halves, I'd much rather know what I am doing but still have a nice little buzz than walking around in a messy state.