Even though I've always been a heroin guy, I've had a brief run-in with meth addiction. Few years back in Malaysia (if you know people you can score legit stuff there) I thought to myself "Hey hey hey! I kicked HEROIN three years ago! This'll be a walk in the park!" (I was obv. wrong as always). I had tried meth many times before but because of my previous heroin habit I never got into it much. Its addiction wasn't as bad as dope sickness, but here's what happened.
I started by shooting a point, which I read somewhere here back when I was lurking was a good dose for a beginner. Shit had me twakking the fuck out for 24 hrs min. Then I would take quetiapine or mirtazapine, wash it down with 2 tall beers and some pringles. Crash for a day. No using for five days, then repeat. That lasted about a month. By second month it became twice a week and by the third it became daily and to the point that i actually never "slept", but only passed out.
My tolerance got so high I literally had to shoot a 0.3 to feel NORMAL. Needed more to get high. Had some homelessness for five weeks and um... yeah the story ends here (the part I wanna tell
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Hey!, i know this is an old thread and idk if bumping to answer u is not ok, but i want to say i feel strongly identify with your history (i havent been heroin daily user before, but tramadol benzos and alcohol abuse, the alcohol really is important when taking high doses... i guess it affects the metabolism, idk but you can get super strong noddings just with tramadol, 2mg. clonazepam and alcohol, i always was thinkging i was doing great to taking other depressants to prevent seizures of high doses lol).
And rn, i have mhh around 4 years daily meth use, with a month or two of non physical posible meth use, but last 5-7 years using daily... thanks god i got a nice supply, but its expensive like only a stupid addict will pay for it... i dont like the need of wash my shit or get another vomitibe chemical in it... if the shit i buy have any flavor or have any harsh "like burning" feel, i will not buy fo real until the next batch supply, around a month? sometimes more, really only change for a 3 days per week habit and 4 for sleep, from 1 and a half day awake and half day sleeping TxT
I hope the best for u all, im actually using pharms too to make the addiction less hardcore in my life, idk how much they help becouse the meth obviously is over all of them in subjective effects of all drugs that i use daily at this moment... (1g weed, 2mg clona, 100mg sertraline, .100-225 mg. meth and 2-4 days per week modafinil 100-200 mg., 1-2 days week mirtazapine 7.5). I would like to take the mirtazapine daily, it really have helped me to get my appetite back even more than before, and thats a must when you wasted your body using daily, and still are working with a abnormally higher metabolism and reducing your food and water intake, thats a stupid way to change your metabolism chronically, but thanks to god i have been very healthly all my life, even after hardcore cocaine and stimulants rcs poly drug use overdoses with extreme doses, i have done insane doses of several chems daily putting me at risks of things that never happened, but i have used massive dosing when i was drunk generally and that was a enormous disaster, the few ones i ended in an hospital was the easiest, but the hardcore ones, i ended in strange situations and damn thanks god i had someone that doesnt throw me at the street after my overdose, becouse i was at 100s of kms away from any family member, generally carrying all my money to have food drugs and a place to rent in my pocket, i cant have bank accounts in most banks becouse i got a lot of debt with them haha, got nice credits with previous commerce of electronics work i have done with a girl, and i was buying the products from china with my debit/credit cards, one and a half year i got at the same time the offer of average 100,000 mxn credit per month, i used 9 of t hem, someones to pay the previous ones, i really was paying at time for years, but the debt was growing, and i stoped to work and use much more meth plus selling all my goods, i sold all, tv, xbox, computers, jewerly, only kept my clothes becouse i know i will got a ridiculous ammount of money from them and i bought them brand new and i need clothes anyway, my life was a chaos and still is but i know when im really out of control in my file, and right now im on that way, i have been years really miserably auto destructive habits that any other will start to say me that i look very fucked up, ayone will start to ask themselves why im auto destroying me and what to do, someones gone and someones stay, worried and offering help or something like that, until something very hardcore happens and i generally stop all uses, i have been stopped 4mg clona 2-3 yr daily use cold turkey one time, just the fact that i know was phisically impossible to get the drug was decisive on the severity of the withdrawals, even for benzos, but mostly with meth, for the psychological factor, i know things like that, but im a pussy to stop my drug use at the moment, i know is not so hard, even polydrug abuse stop, and with meds, its a piece of cake of shit, the only thing i get out lowering dose was in tramadol cuz i felt i will suicide if i stop suddenly that shit and was redosing daily to evade the feeling of withdrawals hahahaha, but i gone with a veyr professional dr., that right now dont trust me any shit anymore, anyway i like to change my drs, and stay with the obviously more interested in my improvement, see a particular psychiatric and even drug master studies dr. is not very expensive here, im paying 35 usd monthly now to see my psych becouse i really know i need someone to monitor me and my use, and some of them have been so helpful before, but i have medical scripts signed by an ex-addict aunt that own a pharmacy, and never will worry of me using the scripts, when i had bought more obvious to non medical use pharms, i had scripts of another dr. / veterinian, thats my client and i print their scripts, and was doing massive buying in the same day, without try to repeat, at every pharm was near me and had ketamine, pheno/pento barbital, buprenorphine, all in liquid vials, was my favorites hahaha, i know the drs was awarned and never no one asked me anything about use their scripts, but i have been alerted by a family member when i have done with the script of them, they dont get angry or any but let me know that they got called and get photos of the scripts used.
Well... i dont remember the topic... ah the meth contorl... i wish to have it some time in my life, but just remember the original post... meth... i will tike few hits right now, honestly what stop me from abuse right now is it doesnt have almost any effect if i dont do it IV, and i will not IV meth... i have done stupid things like IV ritalin extraction solution, and always have be safe, but i only IV dirty things when im drunk, and im not drunk anymore cuz the meth lul
blessings, keep you safe and lets go haha, have nice week
But you have plenty of time to work out something. Set some good emergency goals just in case things don't work out and you're at a super low point and stuck without an exit. Like with opiates I guess you can say "I'll get on suboxone or methadone if I am suddenly not a real person anymore and nodding out every second of the day." You never know how addiction will play out and it's scary to believe. I suppose on an HR forum we should say "don't give the drugs power" and have power over the drugs. Sometimes it literally feels like you have 0% control. Really 
