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Mental Health Anyone else have anxiety & undefined disorder?

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Mycophile

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I was unsure about posting this but fuck it,

I probably have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and most likely some form of depression and OCD.

Anyone on this forum relate to having a bunch of shit that is sort of undefined?

Needless to say, it makes me want to self medicate haha.
 
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Mycophile said:
I was unsure about posting this but fuck it,

I probably have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, I also have Non Verbal Learning Disability and most likely some form of depression and OCD.

Anyone on this forum relate to having a bunch of shit that is sort of undefined?

Needless to say, it makes me want to self medicate haha.
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First off, you said but fuck lol. Get it? Sorry, I'm immature.

Anyways, there's a lot of people who go undiagnosed with mental disorders. It's kind of the nature of the beast because a lot of times the disease itself will prevent the person from seeking treatment or being honest enough with a dr to make a diagnosis possible.

I'm sure I have some sort of anxiety disorder, possibly other issues, but the thought of telling my dr all my symptoms is horrifying so I don't say much and I've never gotten a clear diagnosis.
 
I was diagnosed with major depression, GAD, and possible bipolar II. I'm pretty damn sure I am bipolar but I've never been able to get to a proper psychiatrist. I also suspect I suffer from moderate OCD, but again I've never been formally diagnosed.
 
I was diagnosed bipolar and self medicate as well because the medications prescribed make me feel strange. So I'm going to ask him to take me off SSRI's and switch me to something else. Is your medication regimen not working for you?
 
T. Calderone said:
I was diagnosed bipolar and self medicate as well because the medications prescribed make me feel strange. So I'm going to ask him to take me off SSRI's and switch me to something else. Is your medication regimen not working for you?
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I don't have bipolar, but what medications have you tried that have worked for you?

Has anything caused a real lasting mood lift for you that leaves you feeling functional?
 
See I never had success with SSRI or SNRI.
I think alrazolam really helps if used as needed.
You should try lorazepam.
I've used clonazepam and I find it too sedating.
 
I might have to get some kratom before it becomes illegal.
There are 2 drugs I want to use MAOI or Adderall, unfortunately I keep ending up with discriminating doctors.
The just think I'm trying to get high.
 
n00bsaibot said:
I might have to get some kratom before it becomes illegal.
There are 2 drugs I want to use MAOI or Adderall, unfortunately I keep ending up with discriminating doctors.
The just think I'm trying to get high.
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Where do you live?

Is there really that strong a possibility that Kratom will become illegal anytime soon in the U.S.?

I know the FDA is watching it, but I haven't heard that it's necessarily very likely to become illegal.
 
Mycophile said:
It is pretty much "working" in the sense of helping with a large amount of my anxiety and OCD symptoms but it's not "working" in the sense of doing everything I'd like it to do.

I still have a ton of anxiety "probably because I drink too much coffee which I can't seem to quit" as well as depression (but how much of that is just being "unhappy"?) and I always want a mood lift or a high...neither of which my meds can give me (yeah some people get high off Klonopin but I don't and I'm glad because even if I did I wouldn't abuse it, I need it too much for real reasons and don't want to worsen my already massive dependence).

At the end of the day, anxiety meds may help with anxiety, SSRIs may work for OCD symptoms (NOTE: they are NOT ONLY anti-depressants)...but if you want a mood lift or a high, well, that's a whole different story.

Maybe I'd be better on something other than Prozac...but I've been on it So long I'd be a little worried about trying anything else.

It's like wanting to be able to be on something which just constantly puts me in a positive, confidant yet functional and relaxed mood, but really, there is probably nothing like that that won't cause massive health problems and/ or dependence in one's life.

I could talk to my doctor and have for years, and will see him next week, but it's the same old story: how many chemicals can you put in your body to achieve a perfect state?

The answer: it's never enough.
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first of all, if you have bad anxiety you must eliminate all caffeine from your life..that would be the first step and trust me, i know how hard it is to do..if you are anxious and take benzos but also take in a bunch of caffeine, its almost a pointless exercise, you are constantly up an down..depending on the amount of caffeine you take, it might also be causing your depression..i noticed when i was taking in larger amounts of caffeine, id get a short mood boost but then id crash and be down and depressed for hours..

there is no drug that is going to be reliable at giving you a mood boost that is going to be sustainable for any amount of time..trust me, i have tried lol..all of them have downsides or crash ..the only consistent thing i have found that boosts mood is hard exercise..i dont mean a walk around your block, i mean lifting weight or doing wind sprints..its not fun but it does boost mood and reduce anxiety..

oh and yes, i have several mental problems undiagnosed, no doubt about it..i have found though that when i alleviate one, another one seems to get worse..it really sucks..

"it's never enough"

very true and you sound like an addict, just like me...i get what i want, i simply want more the next day, never satisfied for more than 20 seconds...yep, thats me..
 
belfort said:
first of all, if you have bad anxiety you must eliminate all caffeine from your life..that would be the first step and trust me, i know how hard it is to do..if you are anxious and take benzos but also take in a bunch of caffeine, its almost a pointless exercise, you are constantly up an down..depending on the amount of caffeine you take, it might also be causing your depression..i noticed when i was taking in larger amounts of caffeine, id get a short mood boost but then id crash and be down and depressed for hours..

there is no drug that is going to be reliable at giving you a mood boost that is going to be sustainable for any amount of time..trust me, i have tried lol..all of them have downsides or crash ..the only consistent thing i have found that boosts mood is hard exercise..i dont mean a walk around your block, i mean lifting weight or doing wind sprints..its not fun but it does boost mood and reduce anxiety..

oh and yes, i have several mental problems undiagnosed, no doubt about it..i have found though that when i alleviate one, another one seems to get worse..it really sucks..

"it's never enough"

very true and you sound like an addict, just like me...i get what i want, i simply want more the next day, never satisfied for more than 20 seconds...yep, thats me..
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Thanks for the response,

Believe me, I know I want to quit caffeine or at least get down to just one cup in the morning would be ideal because I don't think there's much wrong with that small an amount, but I've tried like LITERALLY over 50 times and never been successful at getting off and staying off.

It causes me not only anxiety but I think also depression.

It probably is so much harder because I think I have Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder so trying to get up at a time when normal people would makes me so tired I drink even more coffee and then it messes me up and it's hard to sleep at night and everything just goes in cycles.

The only thing that has helped me break both my caffeine addiction and get on a normal sleep schedule is dexedrine and I managed not to get addicted to that by using it only a few days in a row, but now I have no access to it and I wish I did (not asking for sources, just saying...).

I agree that exercise helps IMMENSELY.
 
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How many milligrams of caffeine are you consuming.
I was once consuming over 700mg a day!
When I quit , I had terrible withdrawals.
 
n00bsaibot said:
How many milligrams of caffeine are you consuming.
I was once consuming over 700mg a day!
When I quit , I had terrible withdrawals.
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How many milligrams are in a typical cup of coffee?

Right now I drink 4-5 cups a day, but I've been as high as 8 cups a day in the past which I am assuming is at least 700mgms.

That's why withdrawals are so freaking bad for me.
 
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Yeah, if your drinking shit from a café probably up to 200mg a serving.
If your just drinking some generic home made stuff, maybe 80-100mg.

But your intake is pretty high.
I quit cold turkey, it sucked so bad. I would suggest using cannabis to quit and have some benzos for rough days.
 
Yes you will need to reduce your dosage slowly.
But I don't think caffeine is the problem. Since I've quit, I've haven't noticed any benefits from it.
 
Mycophile said:
No one ever takes caffeine addiction seriously.
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I switched to freshly ground, high quality decaf. Decaf coffee still contains caffeine but it is far less. I also cut this down to no more than 2 cups a day. If you make good quality coffee you are probably like me and like the ritual and aroma as much as the actual effect of the coffee. Switching to decaf allows me to still have the ritual of grinding the beans, brewing the cup and having it be a reasonable part of my life.
 
Yeah I definitely feel you, I have generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety, and depression. I do feel like there's something "undefined" though and that no medical place takes me seriously and wants to look into it. It's extremely frustrating and feels like everyone I care about is giving up on me too and thinks I'm just bullshitting for attention or some shit when that's not even close to what's going on. I hate attracting attention to myself but when I constantly feel like I'm losing my mind and just want to end everything, it's hard to keep it to yourself when you just want loved ones around you. Sorry about rambling on, really odd mood today.. but the point is, I understand what you're saying and you can message me if you ever want/need to and I'll try to help out the best I can.
 
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