lovemissile66
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 22, 2018
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Hey endlessnameless! I've got 17 days clean...right now! Longest stint EVER, not counting that lil stint in prison. I really thought by now I would not still be sneezing occasionally, have the chills, hot flashes, and most def-the insomnia. One day I will get maybe an hour, tops of sleep-the next night 3. And it keeps moving like that. 2 steps forward, 4 back. I am slooowly creating distance between myself and heroin. I am not even gonna beat myself up this time if I cave. In some respects, I do feel clearer. And my fucking face! OMG!!! Dope face is going away! But energy is hit and miss and, of course, I still want very much to use. No real support in place, so I need to get on that. Its always been my missing link. But no NA for this girl. Anyway, didn't mean to hijack your thread. Just wanted to say any minute of clean time is GREAT AND COUNTS!!!!I am unfortunately (Heroin though, not pharmaceutical opioids) - I had two weeks clean time and used for 4 days due to really intense and sustained depression, so that was enough to kick off withdrawals again. All I can hope for is that the two weeks of sobriety will stand to me and that the remainder of the physical withdrawals this time wont last long. I'm hoping to see them fade by Sunday/Monday or some day before this day next week. I feel that's realistic.