I am on Suboxone; 8MG/day and always feel fine when just taking the Suboxone but still mess up every once in a while; its not something that happens often but still happens because its THERE and I am ABLE TO DO IT; but anytime I am NOT able to use because I am around the GF or I am on a vacation, I think NOTHING of it and time goes by w/o a problem in the world.
it makes me think, if I moved outside of where I live I would have OK and have no problems whatsoever, right? assuming I dont meet a dope dealer on day one, lol. but seriously, it just seems so easy when its not there and not in my face. anytime I go to FL, NC, CA, etc, I never ask or even think of such a thing; all I need is my 8MG of Suboxone in the AM and I have a smile on my face the whole day. but once I get back to my home state, the questions start to run in the head, asking me what I should do, where I should go, what the "right" decision would be for today, etc.
so, there are times I just think I am better off elsewhere, right? WHY NOT JUST MOVE and SAVE MY LIFE and get out of this shithole I live in now. by shithole I do not mean a bad place in the US but a bad place for me to be because its the ground where I grew up and where I became a junkie and just know the people/streets all too well. I actually know people in other parts of the US where I would be able to try and make a move but what stops me is medical problems that are outside of addiction or else I think my move would have already been made.
anyone else feel like this? that all it takes is it a move for you to quit but yet you cannot get out?
it makes me think, if I moved outside of where I live I would have OK and have no problems whatsoever, right? assuming I dont meet a dope dealer on day one, lol. but seriously, it just seems so easy when its not there and not in my face. anytime I go to FL, NC, CA, etc, I never ask or even think of such a thing; all I need is my 8MG of Suboxone in the AM and I have a smile on my face the whole day. but once I get back to my home state, the questions start to run in the head, asking me what I should do, where I should go, what the "right" decision would be for today, etc.
so, there are times I just think I am better off elsewhere, right? WHY NOT JUST MOVE and SAVE MY LIFE and get out of this shithole I live in now. by shithole I do not mean a bad place in the US but a bad place for me to be because its the ground where I grew up and where I became a junkie and just know the people/streets all too well. I actually know people in other parts of the US where I would be able to try and make a move but what stops me is medical problems that are outside of addiction or else I think my move would have already been made.
anyone else feel like this? that all it takes is it a move for you to quit but yet you cannot get out?