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Anyone else ever been kicked out by parents,etc?

Georgie25

Georgie25

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Well long story short, I was clean off heroin for about 7 months and any other drugs besides my suboxone (with one day relapse every so often, which I usually would get caught in the end somehow). This past week I ended up relapsing again, but with coke. Regardless, I had tracks on my arms from using very old rigs and shooting coke every 5 mins for a couple hours the other day. So my dad freaks out and I get kicked out and now I'm doing 30 days at my moms place which is about an hour 1/2 - 2 hr drive from the ghetto where I can score my drugs. There's gonna be a lot of restrictions and watching of me so its out of the question if I ever feel tempted. I actually feel more excited than anything, feels like a mini vacation from hell. I'm hoping to get a job up here and learn to live life again without having easy access to source my drugs in the city.

Anyone have any similar experiences? %):\
 
I haven't been kicked out of my parent's house, no. I have been informally kicked out of my apartment by a crooked landlord, and I have written about this previously. It's not the same though.

Good luck man, I am sure your parents still care about you a lot and will still let you live with them if you can get your act together. It takes time and I'm sure you can do it! :)
 
Yep. My friend posted me 7 grams of dope and my mum opened it. She came up to me screaming and said either we throw it away and you can stay or you take it and get the fuck out of my house. Of course I chose the dope. Had a horrible time on the streets, helped me reach the rock bottom I needed to get to though and now I'm clean of all substances and alcohol for 3 months.
 
I'm glad to hear you're excited about it. Make the most of this time and collect your thoughts! Good luck staying away from the junk while you're there too =)

I was "kicked out" of my dad's house promptly when I turned 19 (it would've been 18 but I didn't graduate until age 19 because I had to repeat my junior year after skipping so much school and spent said year--all eleven months--in a rehab facility... ugh, it was hell!). It was more of me leaving as an adult than anything though.

However, I seriously doubt that either of my parents would've wanted me living with them after becoming a technical adult so since the above experience, there hasn't been any issues with being "kicked out" as I haven't lived with them since. There was one point I left college in MS and came home to GA and my dad said I absolutely could not live with him, so I had to couch surf until I found a job and a place to move into. He wouldn't budge, so I doubt he'd ever budge in the future but it won't be a problem 'cause I'm never gonna live with my folks again (as much as I love 'em I don't think I would like being under my parents' roof now that I'm older).

Once again, keep your chin up and make the most of this time! Enjoy your "vacation" =)
 
wana give up..... parents are evil

I can absolutely relate to your situation as far as the whole college and parents thing. My parents kicked me outta the house at 20 for going away to a inpatient program for smoking weed everyday and basically due to that, becoming very lazy and messing up in college. I had and still do have a difficult time learning outta text books and what not on subjects which I find boring and worthless... I still feel in my gut that school just wasn't for me and I wouldn't have succeeded even if I wasn't smoking weed and partying in school cause whenever I would sit down to study I would loose interest very quickly and ended up falling asleep or giving up on memorizing a million things by going over them a million times which never worked for me. I ended up switching schools 3 times and even switching my major which made things even more difficult do to the amount of memorization and studying in the medical area which was just impossible for me.....
I found my way and became somewhat successful and make far more than the minimum wage and somewhere up to $600- $1500 bucks a week if I get good side work. I thought this would allow me to live a normal life, yet I was sooooo wrong. Whats killing me now literally is just how expensive it is to live in this world or country or state or county for that matter. My rent which is $1000 a month for a small bullshit one bedroom on top of my bills is just destroying me as a person and has led me to consider suicide and other things on top of my opioid use which allowed me to enjoy life for 2 years being on opioids all day everyday even though I was broke due to the amount of money I had to lay out every month. To see all the money I make every month just go out the window on the first of every month has basically destroyed my self worth and is killing my soul and good nature as a human being. I"m on the verge of giving up after 11 years of being on my own and not having anything to show for it except for an apartment which I don't even own. I"m very close to becoming homeless and have been trying to figure out how I"m gona live out of my truck for the past 3 months now, knowing that after this month I will be broke again, just like every other month since the year 1999. I took so many oxy's today, along with percocets and whatever else I could find just to help ease the pain of being completely broke at the end of every month for which I just can't handle it. I am seeking and having therapy but it isn't doing a god dam thing and just makes me feel worse that I have to open up to some college slut intern who is a year younger than me. I break my ass during work, driving around the 5 boro's in my own truck which they hardly compensate me on, the amounts of stress I endure everyday from traffic and customers to then only come home with $120.00 a day working part time, then on top of that doing as many side jobs as possible to only make ends meet, then to start over again at the end of the month. THis has led me to feeling compeltely hopeless and is leading me to consider either becoming homeless to be able to save a few bucks every month, or still live with a roof over my head and stay broke, hopeless, scared, and suicidal. I"m now on my last $150.00 to my name after paying out $1000.00 for rent plus bills, gas, food, cell phone, and no way can I afford to see the doctor...... Hopefully I will pass if I get sick and end all psychotic cycle of working just to be broke at the end of the month every month.... I have nothing to show for the last 10 years of my life except for a license and a bunch of side customers which took me years to aquire yet to now see just how worthless my job really is and how worthless all this hard work is in this financially torturing country called the U.S. The price to pay to live on this pathetic land is just immpossible to afford unless your a millionaire for if your not, then you are in the same suicidal cycle of working to only start over again at the end of the month, to then if you don't make as much as you made last month to then be kicked out and left for dead.
Why the fuck do people have kids for?? Its cruel and completely avoidable, its also a competely selfish action to have kids in general. For all of us to grow up decently for most and then to see the financial nightmare which we all have to put up with is just cruel and unfair to a human soul to make him/her have to go threw the torture of financial handcuffs. I hope to god this country goes belly up and all its people one day can afford to live decently without having to become millionaires. The only way out for me is to either live in my car, escape to a secluded area in the middle of knowwere and live off the land, or die. Living this lifestyle of paying high rent with jobs that don't pay shit, even with an education or license is imo the worst form of torture than one can go threw besides being caged in like an animal or jail for non violent crimes or drug using or selling.

If your gona go to school, dude, go for something very very specialized thats in strong demand for that is your only shot as not being in fincancial handcuffs and wanting to kill yourself for becoming successfull and making a decent living, cause thats my punishment for the rest of my life because I don't make thousands of dollars a week I just make under a thousand, so for that I will suffer a painful life of financial torment, the chance that I can be homeless at any moment, and for all the hard work and success I have made to only now see it for what it really is makes me wana give up all together. I"m so scared that I won't have the rent and the money to pay my bills at the end of every month even making a decent living or so I thought would be a decent living has derailed my views on reality and make me colder and more hopeless every month when the man takes the last few bucks I have to have to eat fast food..... to mabye not eating at all after working a hard day..... God dam this fuck'n land we live on... its a curse and has drained me of everyting from money to love, to dreams which have been shattered and forgotten and to a family that probably wants me dead because I can't pay all my bills every month and consistantly beg for help which in turn makes me wana go with god and end all this torture......
 
when i was 18 i came home super baked, eyes glossed over like no other... back when my tolerance was shot, and i was smoking to feel happy. anyway she told me choose weed or choose my home, family, etc by staying there and paying $300 AND lose the privilege of my car ( i had a full time job at the time). so I called my bf, said hey can you come pick me up, packed my shit up, and left. haven't looked back since. we have lived together almost a yr now

how wonderful for mommys little princess to succumb to the lifestyle of hard drugs within 2 months. i resent her. i shouldn't but i do
 
molly897 said:
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Molly don't take this the wrong way but I assumed you were in your 30's for some reason. Maybe it was all the photos and then someone saying you looked like Brittany Murphy and she was older than you. Not sure. You know when I was a teenager I could pass for being old enough to buy alcohol and cigs with no problem. Now people want to see my driver's license because they can't believe I am in my 50's. I've had lots of people tell me I look 38 at most to which I reply that they need glasses :)

Nineteen? You have your whole life in front of you. Geeze you can't even gamble in Vegas (legally) yet. :)
 
Help me please said:
Molly don't take this the wrong way but I assumed you were in your 30's for some reason. Maybe it was all the photos and then someone saying you looked like Brittany Murphy and she was older than you. Not sure. You know when I was a teenager I could pass for being old enough to buy alcohol and cigs with no problem. Now people want to see my driver's license because they can't believe I am in my 50's. I've had lots of people tell me I look 38 at most to which I reply that they need glasses :)

Nineteen? You have your whole life in front of you. Geeze you can't even gamble in Vegas (legally) yet. :)
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lmao... it's ok i kinda appreciate it

i get ID'd in real life every day all day though so i think it's the pictures. drugs really washed me out and when i lost significant weight that played into looking older aswell. so i can see what you mean anyway :) actually i haven't tried to drink publicly since before drugs when i looked different, so maybe i wouldn't get ID'd.

and yup not 20 til may.. i just turned 19. i'm hoping this means when i turn 21 i will not get into the drug scene again, as many people so often due to being able to drink :P
 
OMG I feel like a friggn pedophile now.

Thanks helpme :!

I thought she was older than me and now I feel like one of those creepy old guys who hits on girls half their age.
 
^ Thank you Bo cause I really was feeling horrible for saying Molly looks older than she is. Of course the joke could be on us and she may be in her 30's. Is it okay for me to tell Molly that you are 28 so she doesn't think you are older which would make it seem like she was older too? Still a pretty girl no matter how old or young she is.
 
the family basically disintegrated when i was 13. i'd been jumped ahead two grades in elementary so was already in high school that spring when everything fell apart. i got a scholarship to a boarding school in western mass., did summers on the street in nyc between school terms, got another scholarship for college at 16, continued doing street summers cuz the college had a big classical music thing each summer, graduated w/ BA at 20 and headed south. i think i spent maybe 3 days total at my mother's during one of those summers cuz she made it real clear i wasn't welcome. i didn't want to be there, she didn't want me there, so yeah left at 13, never went back, never got any "care package" or $$ for birthday or xmas. if nothing else the whole experience taught me how to be self-reliant and independant but i felt totally worthless as well since "family" didn't value me enough to say happy b-day, merry xmas, or even accept a collect call... was better that way but i remember a few times wondering wtf i had done so bad that they wouldn't even speak to me. still don't know and never will since they're all dead now.
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Help me please said:
^ Thank you Bo cause I really was feeling horrible for saying Molly looks older than she is. Of course the joke could be on us and she may be in her 30's. Is it okay for me to tell Molly that you are 28 so she doesn't think you are older which would make it seem like she was older too? Still a pretty girl no matter how old or young she is.
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lol yes you can tell her.

I actually think girls her age would tend to take that as a compliment most of the time (looking older) its just that this is a drug forum and she may be likely to mispercieve it.
She doesn't look aged by drugs as in "worn and torn" looking, her skin is flawless, her face is absolutely incredible, and her body is.... uhh fuck I forgot what I was gonna say.... ummm.... ok "think with head.. think with head"... no thats not working lets change the topic.

But its actually just the way her face looks, its well developed/mature looking like you'd expect in a middle aged women. Girls her age don't really "even out" till a little later in life. Something may look disproportionate (usually narrower hips), soft facial features, baby fat, withdrawn bone structure, she just looks older. And I mean that in the most complimenting way possible. I sometimes have to lie to myself and say "molly is ugly" just so I don't compliment her to death and drive her off the forum lol.

Theres lots of good looking women on here but a lot of them also have a generic/predictable look to them. Its hard to explain but they all look the same in a way. Molly has a very individual and exotic look to her. Like there are supermodels who are hot, but they all look the same. Then there are celebrities who just have faces that stick out (I don't even consider meghan fox one of those girls, she has another predictable type of face), Molly has one of those faces that stick out. Like some girls "turn heads", she causes whiplash.

And I really should stop now lol... couldn't sound any more obsessed if I tried.
 
It might be her mouth too. I've seen photos of Molly with bright red lipstick which I think is rare for women her age. Molly does have a beautiful face and is very photogenic.

Hey Bo...you do know other people can read our conversation right? Lol
 
hahaha wow I AM NOT TAKING OFFENSE AT ALL. bojangles you are a trip hahaha thank you i do appreciate it, your whole post

i used to be 180lbs when i was a kid, so for you guys to talk about my features like they are perfection is unusual:)) but none the less ease some thoughts in my head, so thank you both

and HA i don't care one bit about looking older than 28 :) my boyfriend says i look like jennifer connelly all the time and she's almost 40, if anything i am kind of priding myself on your comments!

my apologies to OP for this thread being semi hijacked
this forum needs reputation function so i can rep you guys' posts
 
I was kicked out by my parents and was living in one of the most dangerous ghettos in america while withdrawing from klonopin. How i am alive i do not know. but it gave me a lot of stories to tell. Those people have no chance. They are born into hell and have to kill to be accepted by their peers. Ive seen things no one sshould see. the funny thing is i didnt even know i was withdrawing. I didnt know klonopin was even addictive. had been on it for 2 years
 
molly897 said:
hahaha wow I AM NOT TAKING OFFENSE AT ALL. bojangles you are a trip hahaha thank you i do appreciate it, your whole post

i used to be 180lbs when i was a kid, so for you guys to talk about my features like they are perfection is unusual:)) but none the less ease some thoughts in my head, so thank you both

and HA i don't care one bit about looking older than 28 :) my boyfriend says i look like jennifer connelly all the time and she's almost 40, if anything i am kind of priding myself on your comments!

my apologies to OP for this thread being semi hijacked
this forum needs reputation function so i can rep you guys' posts
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No problem, but I am now interested in seeing your pic if you don't mind. lol. :)
 
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