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anyone els scared of being injured after opiate addiction?

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Fatjosh

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Today is 110 days free from opiates. Since I have quite my life has done nothing but get better and better. Now that I am sober I cant just sit and waste my days but as most addicts kno there will usualy need to be somthing to fill that void a second addiction to replace your DOC . I didnt have to wait to find mine it had been there all along, im an adrenaline junkie at heart so when I got clean I knew what I would replace opiates with it is a no brainer. Sounds great right? I just bought a rediculously fast streetbike(zx9r), im saving up to get my skydiving liscense, ect.. its all great life has never been so good but my only problem is the fear I have of getting seriously injured. I kno it sounds stupid right but its not because im a pussy I have a tremendous pain tollerence but what if I hurt myself and need pain meds what do I do then? I am unwilling to give up the things I like to do especialy the motorcycle but I have nightmares where I am in an ambulence and I am begging the paramedics not to give me opiates. So I guess my question is has anyone els had to deal with that situation of being a recovering addict and ending up injured needing pain meds? How did u deal with it?
 
Hey man, I am tremendously injured and I'm pretty young. It really sucks, but you could have done as much damage, if not more, from being an addict. You recognize that you can get injured, but you also may not. It's a gamble. If you only focus on possibly getting injured, you probably will get injured. After I injured my self I became a serious opiate addict, before that I was a total alcoholic. I then od'd and did so much damage to my body it was unbelievable. My doctors will not give me traditional opiates for pain, they will give me suboxone for pain. It doesn't work very well, but I kinda fucked myself over. If you do get injured, do yourself a favor... try not to get opiates once your out of the hospital. If you do, give your pills to someone and tell them to hide them, or hold on to them. Tell them also to count them every day. When you are in serious pain, blinding pain, you don't really feel much euphoria from opiates. What you feel is the pain going away. They stuck me with massive amounts of morphine after my accident, that's not what got me addicted. It was the complete control and access to cheap pills that turned me into an addict.

Seriously though, don't focus on the possible injuries, focus on the fun of these adrenaline rushes. You may or may not get injured. When you play any sport, even softball, do you worry constantly about getting injured or do you worry about scoring the next run?
 
just do what other patients do and take your meds as prescribed, taper off and be done with it. Just because you were an addict once doesn't mean you are forever IMO. i know NA/AA disagree with this but if it's warranted and legitimate i see nothing wrong in using pain meds again when you need them.

I was more afraid while on opiates if i got injured and needed surgery, what would i do with a monster tolerance? i'd have to tell the doc and then be refused opiates? the whole thing scared me. You're in a better position now without opiates if you get hurt than if you would be if you were completely addicted.
 
Josh, why are you worried? Your tolerance will be well down, pain relief will work just fine, you're under medical supervision and clinicians will take account of the fact that tolerance and addiction will develop faster with you that they would with someone who'd never been addicted and they will manage dose and cessation of pain relief meds accordingly. Is that what you're scared of? Coming away with another habit cos of it? It would be managed, and you'd probably find it easier to cope with quitting the pain meds even if that were to happen because the psychological addiction that more than likely preceded your physical dependency previously will be absent.

Don't let this fear of worst case scenarios that in all probability will never happen intrude on your enjoyment in life. Get on that bike ride the shit out of it. So long as you don't come off this is all moot anyways? As far as jumping out of planes goes I recommend you strap a parachute to yourself first before exiting the aircraft. Preferably two. Very much the way forward there I think. ;)
 
Let me first say thank you all for your reply's.

Benny- I am most definitely going to try to stay away fron pain meds if at all possible im talking worse case scenario. Sorry to hear you have real deal chronic pain to deal with at such a young age.but I will continue to focus on the things I enjoy doing.

Robo- I would like to think you r right that just because u were an addict doesnt mean u will allways be one. I used to have the same fear while on 250mg of oxy that hey what if I get hurt nothing would have helped my pain.

Sepher-I am not worried of my tolerance, I am worried because I love opiates. I havent relapst at all so im scared that if I take any it could awaken the monster inside me. But I think u r right if it is at that point where I am in tremendous pain the euphoria isnt going to be there. I will most definitely keep doing the things I like to do because they r what makes life worth living that adrenalin makes me feel alive. I was doin 175mph on my bike the other day, those are speeds u really dont walk away from u usualy leave in a bag. But in those moments where u r in a sense flirting with death I feel super present in that moment. I kno it sounds really melodramatic but when u have felt dead inside for so long being present centers me and reinforce that I can feel amazing without drugs. Lol ya 2 parachutes for sure upon exiting a plane. Its funny I have only skydived 3 times (tandem) but iv only been in a plane 6 time so iv taken off in a plane 6 times but iv only landed in the plane 50 percent of the time.
 
When I was injured a few months back, I was prescribed percocet at the hospital. I was worried that I would get addicted again but I was ok. They made me a bit nauseated actually and ibuprofen worked just as well.
 
Opiates have injured me.

Physical, mental, and emotional scars.
 
CH and tcaldrone its good to hear other people have made it through that situation unscathed.

Hthr- sorry opiates have taken such a toll on you
 
First of no I have never. But that is a though I would have never picked up on. I mean I went though something not quit as bad but I use to take cough syrup and when ever I get sick now I just take the stuff without DXM in it the natural kind. If you were to get injured you would probably also get diffrent pain meds than opiates depenting on the incedent. But if you really had an accident and you would tell the docters nbot to give you opiates as pain meds they woundt be alowed to. Now if you were unconcious it would ba a diffrent story. But while their Im guessing you would probably get morphium but even after you got it you could tell your doc that you are an ex addict and he would change the pain medication for you.

This was a very intresing though and thread to read.
 
RobotRipping said:
just do what other patients do and take your meds as prescribed, taper off and be done with it. Just because you were an addict once doesn't mean you are forever IMO. i know NA/AA disagree with this but if it's warranted and legitimate i see nothing wrong in using pain meds again when you need them.

I was more afraid while on opiates if i got injured and needed surgery, what would i do with a monster tolerance? i'd have to tell the doc and then be refused opiates? the whole thing scared me. You're in a better position now without opiates if you get hurt than if you would be if you were completely addicted.
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well said.

treating a habit like an out of control tornado that can come back and overcome you and kill you without your assistance, without being aware of what you are doing, is a tactic that works for some. at the end of the day, it's just a substance with an intended use and it's presence in your body is not actually a hijacker with a gun.

it's insulting to the human experience to treat ourselves as though we are not capable of educating or controlling ourselves.
 
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Doctors have a nasty habit of treating current and ex addicts with the attitude that they've brought it all on themselves and either withold narcotics even if you're laying their writhing in pain or give you an inadequate dosage despite your increased tolerance. So yes, I fear being in an accident as I may very well be forced to endure excruciating pain for no good reason other than because the doctor has his own issues with being prejudiced towards addicts/ex-addicts.

This is why hopefully I can hold out for a couple of decades after tapering off and I'll get to the point where my tolerance is low enough that I'll be just like anyone else. And if I move to a different country my medical records won't follow me. I also am considering stockpiling a very limited supply of methadone just in case. I have a very low threshold for pain and judging by how badly I react to just stubbing my toe I might kill myself if I am left to suffer.

edit: by the way, this haunts me.
 
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