Any Suggestions?

[Rastahund]

About 4 years ago, I started doing psychedelics and I could handle any trip with any intensity. I went through a period in my life where anxiety overtook me and my mind grew very weak. Now, about two years after my anxiety issues, I still can't handle psychedelics like I used to. I now seem to have an issue with "mind over matter" and just can't stop freaking out... like worrying that something might go terribly wrong, or of being in "too much" of an altered state.
What can I do to recondition my mind or make it stronger? Or maybe to train myself into getting past my anxiety.
I've been struggling with this for years now and I still know I have a lot to learn from psychedelics.

Also, it's not only psychedelics that this happens to me on. My heart pounds when I smoke marijuana and it bothers me really bad, I freak out from this overwhelming feeling pulsating through my body on all stimulants and many of those research chemicals and I just can't stop thinking on psychedelics. Ketamine seems to be the only drug that doesn't make me completely freak out.
I used to not have any issues being in any altered state of mind, I just don't see why this has started happening and I have no control over it.

Any suggestions?

 

[Ondine]

I recommend looking into Shambhala Buddhism for a drug free way to calm yourself and reach an introspective state of mind.

If you're looking for a drug for your anxiety, maybe try getting your doctor to prescribe you some benzos. If I'm ever feeling anxious or stressed before or during a psychedelic trip, a few valium always calms me down to the right mindset.

 

[Rastahund]

I'll definitely look into Shambala Buddhism, that sounds like a great idea.
I'm not looking for a drug to calm my anxiety at all... actually, I seem to even freak out on benzos. It's something like I'm subconsciously thinking too hard about the drugs and I need advice on how to not do train my mind to stop doing that. I've tried reminding myself that everything always turns out okay and even when I've had bad trips, nothing REALLY bad ever happened.... but there's still that stupid thought in the back of my head that just won't go away.

And that makes a lot of sense, XTCity... I'll definitely try that. I've noticed that dropping the two at the same time is a little bit too intense of a come up for me, so I haven't tried candy-flipping in quite some time. But I'm gonna try that for sure xD

 

[bolt151]

If it makes you feel any better I've been experiencing exactly the same thing. (I know it made me feel a bit better realising its not just me this happens to)
I find what helps me is when I realise I'm panicking just to take a few deep breaths expanding my belly with each breath and then think through what's happening (i.e its just the drugs, you cant really die from from a fast heartbeat and so on)

 

[gymstud]

Councling and exersise and casul sex lots off
Cpl of year of that youll be fine

 

[Jesusgreen]

Interesting, I'm in the same boat. I struggled with severe social anxiety for a 2 year period, and this showed its ugly head throughout many of my trips, making them a rather scary unpleasant affair. This was present with 4-AcO-DMT in particular.

Now I've beaten my social anxiety, turned my life around and I'm happy and no longer anxious - but when I smoke DMT I'm hit by that exact same fear I always got on my 4-AcO-DMT trips. Now it might be what they call the "pre-flight anxiety", but I'm not sure.

I'd be curious if anyone has found a solution? Is it just that I have further fears that I've yet to deal with?

 

[Rastahund]

Yeah, that's been my issue too... social anxiety and paranoia are what really seem to affect my psychedelic experiences... I'm beginning to wonder if I've developed psychosis.
I just had two 25c trips in the past week. The first one i dosed in half hits through my nose... that was full of anxiety ans strong hallucinations. The second trip was very pleasant but i had also injested mdma, ketamine, marijuana and alcohol.
What im trying to say is, is the anxiety all in my head since all those other drugs seemed to xover up my tripping anxiety?

 

[FluffyDayz]

Hi Rastahund,

The anxiety is definitely all in your head, however the way it keeps re-manifesting suggests that its being caused by something you need to genuinely deal with. Once you deal with the root cause, then you'll be able to trip again without any issues.

Time off everything will help, along with meditation & a good quality diet.

You can't push your way through these things unfortunately, it will only make it worse, sorry if that sounds harsh but its true. But once you do genuinely deal with the cause of these issues, everything, including your trips, will get better, soooo much better & smoother too!

 

[eye_wide_open]

DMt is creepy stuff.
I've had good and bad trips with it.

I think it causes anxiety because it's trying to rip you into the next dimension. lol.
Fair enough there.

Weed causes anxiety a bit for me.

But the thing is, if I have nothing to worry about, I'm usually not worried about anything.
I cleared up a lot of problems in my life and that helps the anxiety quite a bit.

Weed causes a lot of my social anxiety though. I don't like being around people much or going out into public when I smoke. In that sense, I wait until after I do what I need to get done to smoke weed. Then I have no problems. I try and plan all the things I have to get done early in the day so I can have the afternoons to myself to do what I want.

it keeps re-manifesting suggests that its being caused by something you need to genuinely deal with

Yup.

Either that, or you got your ass kicked by the psychedelics the last time and might be apprehensive do dive in again. hehe. I don't think you always have to have hidden issues to have scary trips that may steer you away. But it sure helps.

Paranoia is the devil. lol.
I get it quite a bit, but I'm getting better at ignoring it and using it to pay attention to what is going on around me instead and figure out what I can do to reduce paranoia.

All the trips I had that were bad where I did not go to the hospital, I value greatly because I learned a lot from them. Even the one I did go to the hospital I learned from (datura).
Don't be afraid, it just makes it worse. If a trip goes south, just try and focus and remember it will be over soon and stay calm. Do you best not to OD in the first place and you'll be ok. Start slow and work up.

Scary/emotional ego deaths and out of body experiences are not to be taken lightly. This stuff we play with has reason to cause a bit of fear or pre flight jitters. We are playing with our inner mechanics and discovering things that aren't exactly well documented.

Some of us will need support after experiencing things like this. It can cause psychosis and it is a fairly serious situation/rollercoaster to be presented with such drugs. We have reason to be nervous, although it usually isn't helpful.

I feel like the more you understand and respect each of these drugs the less you have to be afraid of them.