Any content opiate addicts out there?

[spacebound]

i'm content with where i am at with my opiate addiction at the moment for the sole reason that i am not currently PHYSICALLY addicted. i limit my use to 2-3 times a week which is very difficult, but keeps me out of withdrawals and keeps my wallet a little heavier. being content as an opiate addict is very difficult and demanding, but as others have said, it can be done. i completely accept the fact that i am mentally addicted.

 

[-Guido-]

I feel you there man, I was doing upwards of 5 or more panda 4s a day ,not dicksizing just truth and went cold turkey because of no choice legality reasons and I can say that I wish I would have gotten on a sub program or done' cuz it fucked with my head for a long time with depression and anxiety and i never talked with a doctor about it...now I'm 6months clean, other then a sub here and there when times got tough, but after 6months im still not happy with myself, so I'm meeting with a doctor next week to get evaluated. I wish I would of gone the route you did.
( I know, take it to TDS right? Lol )

I had quit cold turkey and tapered off heroin many times but the post acute withdrawal symptoms were to much. I was clean two months but as the days went on the PAWs got worse so I had to go back to heroin to function. I'm on Methadone because it's the socially acceptable way for me to maintain my sanity. I went two days without my methadone as an experiment a while ago; I was bitter, angry, rude, and a general piece of shit.

I believe that some people got a chemical imbalance and taking opiates and opiods is a way to self medicate.

 

[shimazu]

pretty much in the same boat as OP.

except not in school and its not really "breaking the bank" but it sure isnt growing the bank either. Wasnt planning on doing dope this weekend, one text is all it took for that to change.

I should move to the middle of no where or something theres just so much drugs in the northeast

 

[Pill2Chill]

Sure, I'm happy when I'm high. And I don't ever have problems getting my prescriptions.
But physical dependence is a fucking bitch. If it wasn't for that I would take breaks wayy more often..

So no I'm not happy about my physical addiction. (Who in their right mind would be..?) The psychological aspect is alot tougher to overcome, but the physical dependence keeps me from even trying to quit, or trying to use less often.

It's a bitch, and you would (obviously) be better off quitting. If you can't, keep avoiding physical dependence. It sucks balls waking up and needing to pop some pills in order to just feel "okay", not even high. Using every day makes it alot less pleasurable. Looking forward to it is okay, as long as you don't cave..

Anyway that's my 2 cents, I'm not trying to be a hypocrite or lecture you, just trying to help.

 

[argentina420]

I'm personally; honestly okay with using 3X+ times a day. I have everything I use scripted and I function fine on it. Ik that that's different than being homeless and such because of it so that's probably WHY I'm okay with it. It doesn't bother me one bit. I have a healthy relationship with my son, my girlfriend and keep my grades up. So I see no reason to be non-content with myself/life.

 

[helium-4]

Now that I'm taking 30mg methadone a day for a neurological condition I feel content. I know that eventually I will want to get off them to at least see where my condition is with out any medication, and that is a little scary, but hopefully the doctor will be knowledgeable enough to do a appropriate taper off methadone. I know I have a little problem with opioids, but since I've been taking the methadone daily, I haven't even really enjoyed using other opioids that much. Its made me think of abusing them a lot less. I still will have a fun time or two with my methadone, but I really just get a good mood lift, which even my parents notice as a good thing. They are glad I'm in a good mood everyday and am feeling well. Just a few months ago when I wasn't even dependent like I am now, I was severely depressed, had terrible sleep problems, my neurological condition was so aggravating to live with.