Anxiety/bi polar took my life

[psyckokilla]

Ive had anxiety my whole life depression all of it....but now at 24 i think ive hit rockbottom..i lost my job my family my friends and im about to lose my bf and my mental state is getting worse and worse everyday..i cant stop thinking about everything all the time analyzing analyzing analyzing till im dizzy..this has taken over my life and now im left alone and scared shitless...im going to see a psych and therapist on friday but ive never made it pass the first day because i freeze and dont talk or they just try to shove Anti depressants at me before hearing me out..plus anti depressants make me fucking even more crazy last time i was on one the fifth day i ended up in jail and another failed relationship..i dont know what to do i dont want to kill myself but im gonna end up in a looney bin on a thorazine drip..

 

[jamesjay]

honestly minus the bi polar ive been dealin with the exact same situation i need help bad smh

 

[DelilahHeartly]

I know exactly how you are feeling.
I do agree, best thing to do is go to see your psyc and therapist. Don't hurt yourself or anything, no drugs, TRUST ME, it's not worth it in the end. You have to accept the past for what it is. The past. You either let it bring you down, or let it make you stronger. Let it make you stronger. Learn from it. You can make yourself feel greater than you do at the moment. If you need anymore help, please, do not hesitate to message me. I've already been through the "crazy house" process already and all that junk. "Your life IS worth living." It's tattooed on my wrists.

Be safe always, and always ask for help. You are important.

 

[Kindatired]

Try and find a shrink that specializes in bipolar disorder. Each shrink seems to have a specialty. If you go see one and they try and put you on any kind of SSRI or SNRI just run away, it means they don't really know what they are doing.

The first thing a good one will do is put you on either Lithium or Lamotrigine to stabilize your mood swings, and maybe something like Epival if you are constantly sliding into a manic state. If you are having trouble sleeping I would bet they would also give a fairly hefty dose of Seroquel, it's an anti-psychotic (good for the mania) and will knock the lights out of you. I wouldn't be surprised if they gave you some kind of benzo for the first two weeks of treatment until the other meds kick in.

I am currently prescribed..

Lithium - 1800 mg
Epival - 1000 mg
Seroquel XR - 900 mg
Xanax - 3 mgs if I need it

My biggest problem is that they think I might also have ADHD as well as bipolar, and the best treatment for ADHD is stims, and stims can push you into a manic episode. So my shrink is trying to decide if it's worth the risk or not.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

If antidepressants make your symptoms worse, then tell the psychiatrist this, and don't allow them to give you other ones.

There are medications which will help you feel more balanced and in control of your emotions and your life.

Talk to the psychiatrist about how you want to manage certain issues you have with medications. Do your research before the appointment, so you know what medications are most likely to help you, with the most favorable side effect profile.

Don't allow a doctor to give you a medication unless you are on board with the idea, and have all your questions answered. You deserve to ask questions about these things and have them answered before you begin taking medication.

There is a lot of knowledge and information out here on the internet, use it to your advantage.

After your appointment, let us know how it went. We can all shed light on things you still may have questions about after you begin medication, as well as you can always contact your doctor or pharmacist once you begin medication.