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Anxiety before doing Drugs???

psychonautcasper

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Hey, when I am my sober self I dont feel normal. Lol. Im always like in anxious/anxiety thoughts. For example I want to do acid, I have done a lot of research. I want to try acid but its hard in my area to get. I might be scoring on some soon though! But before taking it I know I might have a little anxious feeling, like will I be already when I come back. Like not go mentally insane or some crazy shit idk. I get random thoughts but weirdly i dont physically feel anxious or have anxiety. I used to have bad anxiety and would feel sick from it but it went away after meditation and cannabis helped to a degree. But its like I still have that mindset when it comes to taking any drug. I know when I drop the acid I know for a 100% fact it will be good. I will have a great time. Try to find myself aha. When i have the acid i know some anxious thoughts will pop, and if i ignore it i will be fine. When I take the acid i will mostlikely have a great trip, be happy, and when it starts to hit all that anxiety will be gone. I will be confident and everything but everything leading up to it before i would be anxious. If i just take it i know i will be fine. I dont know why its like that. When Im under some influence I become "normal," relaxed and feel like my true self. Just took adderal for studies and before i was worried about the sick feeling but right now I feel great. No sickness. Same for dxm, when it started hitting (300mg first dose) and it was fine. When it was settling in my mind was super cheerful, happy, in love with sound of music. No anxiety at all! I feel like it will be the same for acid. When it starts coming up i will be happy and fine. But before taking it my mind is anxious but not physically anxious and no anxious sickness. I know acid is safe, i dont have mental issues, the only "issue" is the anxiety and my moms side of the family has anxiety, so part is genes maybe. I feel like when im on a drug to where my subconscious is awake, i am perfectly fine, just me being sober im not. Anyone else like this?
 
Kinda see where you're coming from. I have suffered from bad anxiety as well and can kind of relate to the nervousness of trying a drug for the first time. Personally, I believe most people experience this beginner nervousness before trying any new drug.

I put it partly down to how the media portray drugs. I know people who were nervous before trying coke cos they though they would immediately be addicted because of all the hype around stereotypes, like how you go crazy from acid, or weed will turn you into a lazy, unambitious guy.
 
Outside of weed, i, and many others i know, always have some sort of anxiety on the come up waiting for the drug to hit.
 
Outside of weed, i, and many others i know, always have some sort of anxiety on the come up waiting for the drug to hit.

Not to mention the anxiety you get waiting for the "meet" to score. Like the, "hey, I'll there in 5 minutes" and you're still waiting a half hour later. Then the call from your "guy" saying, the guy he was meeting hadn't showed up yet. And so on and so on. I used to hate that shit!! Mostly seemed to happen when I used to get coke. Not sure what it was about coke but it seemed to happen more times than not!
 
I think the anxious feeling you get is triggered by your brain trying to prepare your body for the drugs.

Basically, your body is is always trying to remain at equilibrium. Taking drugs will disrupt that equilibrium, so your brain must tell your body to adjust accordingly. When you take something you haven't taken before, your brain realizes that it needs react for your body to establish equilibrium; it doesn't know how, so you feel anxious.

As you continue taking the drug, your brain learns how to keep your body at baseline. Your body, therefore, makes the necessary adjustments so that you would only feel normal when the drug hits.
 
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