DansLaForet
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Nov 9, 2014
- Messages
- 1
Hi all, first timer o'er here at Bluelight. I've lurked the site a while and have finally created an account, right now the particular cause of which is most likely a newbie experiencing a meth comedown for the first time.
Bit of backstory to myself in general: Around the beginning of my sophomore year in high school (I was 15, I'm 18 now.) I began to suffer from (what I consider to be, never got checked out) mild depression and anxiety. Around this time, a perfect storm of events placed me in a situation where I could phone for as much booze as my money would allow, in a moments notice. I mean, most kids I knew get excited if they get a few beers from their parents; I, conversely, had such easy access, at the point where I could literally pick and choose which alcohol connect I liked to meet up with better. I began daily drinking, AT LEAST half a bottle of 80 proof a day, more if I could get it. I also did the whole "all or nothing" thing, and, well... We have booze restrictions for a reason. Fucked my life up in all the ways that you've all heard a million times, and I was physically addicted by 16. Enough was enough and I cut it out at 17, and while now I'm on a kratom and marijuana regimen that seriously curbs my need to drink, I still struggle with drinking and drinking responsibly, as I still have super easy access to booze.
Lately, my anxiety has been shooting upwards. used to be where I was uneasy and had butterflies in big social situations, I was shy, ect. Never, until about a month ago, have I had full blown panic attacks. Marijuana and kratom have been godsends, but sometimes, it all ain't gon' work out if substances are your only coping methods.
I tried meth for the first time as a novelty two days ago, did not sleep a wink, bout 40hrs awake honesty, though I did get 8hrs last night. I feel like I want to cry, adderall made me feel like this but not for so long. I have no appetite, and though I feel so uneasy and fragile, I'm not in a full blown panic attack and I don't want to ask my mother for an Ativan due to that. I took 30mg of DXM and maybe 7-10 grams of Kratom and my body feels nice but my mind isn't at ease.
How long do these after effects linger, usually? What do you do to ease them, both herbal/med-wise and physical/psychological coping methods? I did around 4-5 lines around the length of a quarter at the time. I'm never doing an amphetamine again. I regret getting it so much. Already the friends I did it with are giving me frustrated calls at 2am asking me to convince my weed dealer to go get some meth and spot them for it. Truly wretched stuff.
I'm sorry if this post is rambling or unclear. I'm just feeling horrid and I don't know what to do, just wanted to vent this and maybe get some advice. Thanks.
Bit of backstory to myself in general: Around the beginning of my sophomore year in high school (I was 15, I'm 18 now.) I began to suffer from (what I consider to be, never got checked out) mild depression and anxiety. Around this time, a perfect storm of events placed me in a situation where I could phone for as much booze as my money would allow, in a moments notice. I mean, most kids I knew get excited if they get a few beers from their parents; I, conversely, had such easy access, at the point where I could literally pick and choose which alcohol connect I liked to meet up with better. I began daily drinking, AT LEAST half a bottle of 80 proof a day, more if I could get it. I also did the whole "all or nothing" thing, and, well... We have booze restrictions for a reason. Fucked my life up in all the ways that you've all heard a million times, and I was physically addicted by 16. Enough was enough and I cut it out at 17, and while now I'm on a kratom and marijuana regimen that seriously curbs my need to drink, I still struggle with drinking and drinking responsibly, as I still have super easy access to booze.
Lately, my anxiety has been shooting upwards. used to be where I was uneasy and had butterflies in big social situations, I was shy, ect. Never, until about a month ago, have I had full blown panic attacks. Marijuana and kratom have been godsends, but sometimes, it all ain't gon' work out if substances are your only coping methods.
I tried meth for the first time as a novelty two days ago, did not sleep a wink, bout 40hrs awake honesty, though I did get 8hrs last night. I feel like I want to cry, adderall made me feel like this but not for so long. I have no appetite, and though I feel so uneasy and fragile, I'm not in a full blown panic attack and I don't want to ask my mother for an Ativan due to that. I took 30mg of DXM and maybe 7-10 grams of Kratom and my body feels nice but my mind isn't at ease.
How long do these after effects linger, usually? What do you do to ease them, both herbal/med-wise and physical/psychological coping methods? I did around 4-5 lines around the length of a quarter at the time. I'm never doing an amphetamine again. I regret getting it so much. Already the friends I did it with are giving me frustrated calls at 2am asking me to convince my weed dealer to go get some meth and spot them for it. Truly wretched stuff.
I'm sorry if this post is rambling or unclear. I'm just feeling horrid and I don't know what to do, just wanted to vent this and maybe get some advice. Thanks.
