Note: I posted this in my old BL journal before it fitzed out. I actually wrote this in my Moleskin journal (I rarely write on it...only when the mood strikes...) and so I'm copying it here again in my beloved blog.
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I have a very anticipatory kind of personality. It is a little bit exhausting to have one's mind constantly fleeting from one thing to another, barely finishing what I'm doing , barely relishing the gratification I am in all probability ignoring from the present act, and my mind is already anticipating the next cigarette stick , the next DVD viewing, the next toiletry shopping spree, the next meal, the next book.
The act of planning, planning, planning, having the mind in perpetual motion, like pages of a book flipping ad infinitum. This is where I get my pleasure...the looking forward to something and not the actual deed. I can be doing something I'd planned just a few minutes earlier, and already my mind is dashing madly to the next chapter. Impetous rushing, snap snap snap of tabs in my mind, invisible ink barely dry on imaginary lists, my endorphins crackling like mad at the endless woosh.
This is what gives me (transitory) pleasure.
It also means I am a good multi-tasker but that's getting ahead of myself. The downside to that is I also have the tendency to "wing it" whereas if I immersed myself completely in what I was doing I could also derive fulfillment in being focused and truly "living in the moment."
Enneagrams Sevens dash frantically from one new experience to another, too scared of disappointment to actually enjoy themselves. It is no surprise that their ego-fixation is PLANNING.
Don't get me wrong, I do appreciate and reap some level of enjoyment in most everything I do. I just with I could be better at it, and have the discipline to focus my thoughts and mind on the task at hand completely and consistently.
I meditate regularly so that's a good step, I think.
Focus and one pointedness of mind is my goal and I have succeeded in doing so at differing points of my day to day existence (especially at work or when I have to be responsible and in charge.)
Just wish I could silence the incessant planning in my head at will
(see I lost myself again..)
Oh...I just love this one.
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I have a very anticipatory kind of personality. It is a little bit exhausting to have one's mind constantly fleeting from one thing to another, barely finishing what I'm doing , barely relishing the gratification I am in all probability ignoring from the present act, and my mind is already anticipating the next cigarette stick , the next DVD viewing, the next toiletry shopping spree, the next meal, the next book.
The act of planning, planning, planning, having the mind in perpetual motion, like pages of a book flipping ad infinitum. This is where I get my pleasure...the looking forward to something and not the actual deed. I can be doing something I'd planned just a few minutes earlier, and already my mind is dashing madly to the next chapter. Impetous rushing, snap snap snap of tabs in my mind, invisible ink barely dry on imaginary lists, my endorphins crackling like mad at the endless woosh.
This is what gives me (transitory) pleasure.
It also means I am a good multi-tasker but that's getting ahead of myself. The downside to that is I also have the tendency to "wing it" whereas if I immersed myself completely in what I was doing I could also derive fulfillment in being focused and truly "living in the moment."
Enneagrams Sevens dash frantically from one new experience to another, too scared of disappointment to actually enjoy themselves. It is no surprise that their ego-fixation is PLANNING.
Don't get me wrong, I do appreciate and reap some level of enjoyment in most everything I do. I just with I could be better at it, and have the discipline to focus my thoughts and mind on the task at hand completely and consistently.
I meditate regularly so that's a good step, I think.
Focus and one pointedness of mind is my goal and I have succeeded in doing so at differing points of my day to day existence (especially at work or when I have to be responsible and in charge.)
Just wish I could silence the incessant planning in my head at will
(see I lost myself again..)
Oh...I just love this one.