Baker
Bluelighter
Blair Witch Project
(Doxylamine Succinate)
Datura and Anticholinergenics have always made me curious through my psycho-naught ways. Although they are known only to cause uncomfortable trips I was still tempted to understand what this uncomfortable feeling meant. I had a packet of 20 dozile (Doxylamine Succinate) and swallowed 7 pills at 25mg each (175mg)
Then I sat back and waited for the trip to start.
I was expecting strong sedation as I get fairly strong sedation of prescription dose. However what was unexpected was that I would only feel this sedation once I stopped moving. So to avoid feeling uncomfortable I tended to move a lot. By about 12, I’d had the pills at about 11 I was starting to feel ‘trippy’. I started to fill with a sense of paranoia and anxiety. I walked around the house and tested to see what things were real or not, I saw little things flash here and there and one occasion I saw a cockroach looking like bug. So I went down to touch it to see if it was real and to my fear it was. It sent a wave of uncomfortableness through my body like what happens in a horror movie and someone jumps out of no where giving you a shock, but this was more just a shiver of uncomfortable feelings rushing through my body.
I decided to have a shower to try to fix my body out, my forehead was significantly hot, hotter then the rest of my body, like I had the flu or something. Anyway the shower seemed to distract my mind from the trip and for a while I felt ‘safe’. Once out again I decided to keep on the move as keeping these strong feelings of uncomfortable sedation or loss of connection with my body seemed like the thing to do. I put some shoes on, got the dog and went for a walk.
It was about 2am and I was still significantly jumpy, I kept thinking I saw people walking on the road or on the path towards me. Sometimes it was real enough to send more waves of uncomfortable feelings through my body. I let my dog of her leash so she could smell the trees or what not, but then I couldn’t tell the difference between a shadow and my dog on several occasions so I tied her back up. Once home again I went on my computer to distract myself while I waited for the feelings to come down, I had a cone/bowl of weed and that seemed to calm my nerves quite a bit.
I sat in my room and stared at my door and it looked as if it was moving. Exciting I though I stared at it some more and it really looked like my door was on a conveyer belt or something (nice visuals). Then I looked at my screen and like on LSD it felt like I could see all the different colours used to make up one colour. By this point I had had about 3 cones, one at 1am, another at 2am and another at 2:30am. It was about 2:45 at this point. Anyway I started feeling really tired so at about 3:30 I decided to retire and go to sleep.
Laying in bed I began feeling the strong feelings of losing connection with my body because of the sedative nature of this Anticholinergenic. Every time I felt myself swapping into my dream state I would get a wave of uncomfortableness and it felt like I was lifting my skull out of its tomb to take a big breath of air because it felt like I hadn’t been breathing either… It was a truly frightening feeling. So in my half asleep slumber I decided to screw trying to sleep at about 4am and watched some TV to get my mind off it. I was still fairly tired but the TV helped the time pass faster. At 6:30 it started wearing off and by 7:30 I was ready to sleep, I fell asleep in no time and woke up at 3pm that afternoon.
I’m glad I made this experience because no I know what everyone talks about when they say Anticholinergenic terror, it is an ugly drug and has a depressing feel to it, I don’t see why anyone would use it recreationally and I find it hard imagining how shamanic uses/spiritual uses/enlightenment uses can be gained from an experience such as this one. The only one I can think of as I didn’t find it philosophic at all would be a new view on life because of that experience. To give you a quick summary I think Blair Witch Project could have been inspired by Datura, because that’s how it felt.
