Benzos Anti depressants during benzo withdrawal

[Madcap86]

So i started my journey with benzo withdrawal in late December of 2010 i never tapered off I had no idea about doing that. Got addicted to them without really realizing it. I had been using on and off for about a year and a half. There was only a 4 month span where i did Valium everyday. The first 3 months of withdrawals were so ruff. I had panic attacks that lasted weeks. For those of you who have ever woken up in a panic attack its not a fun thing. Didn't sleep much at all and had a very hard time eating. About 3 month in my doctor put me on an anti depressant called Zoloft. When the Zoloft started working it made my anxiety worse. I went back to the doctor telling her it wasn't helping but making things worse. She kept telling me that at first the Zoloft would give me more anxiety and that i would have to get used to it. Well because how i was feeling and how vulnerable i was in my withdrawal I just listened and kept taking it. She also kept upping my dose of Zoloft every time I went in for a check up. It just kept getting worse and worse for me i had constant tunnel vision. My vision was totally distorted, and on top of that I thought about death and killing myself on a daily basis. There was so many other symptoms that were coming about it was insane. It was like being stuck in a bad trip. It was hell. Finally after 2 months I told my doctor i couldn't take the Zoloft anymore and tapered off, and its funny as soon as i started doing that things got easier. The other thing is my doctor didn't listen to me when i said i was going through benzo withdrawal, and when i reminded her when I was so fed up with what the Zoloft did to me she said we shouldn't of put you on that you could of died. I was so shocked i havent been back there since. It seems to me that the Zoloft not only made my benzo withdrawals worse but it prolonged it as well. Now I'm in the 10th month of recovery and things have gotten much better but i still have this creepy feeling of doom that follows me around everywhere. I get so paranoid somethings it drives me nuts. I get crazy out of body experiences through out my day. I feel like i am stuck in between the dream world and real life. It getting frustrating. My head feels like its going to pop a lot of the time. I'm in a total fog everyday. I can' enjoy anything in my life anymore.
The question i have is could the Zoloft done even more damage to me? Did it prolong my benzo withdrawal? Am i broken forever?

 

[heavyriffer]

I was on antidepressants before but not valium. I tapered off the antidepressant and now im still tapering off klonopin(Clonazepam). Its the same family as valium just more potent but not as long in half life as Valium. depends on how long youve been on it and what dosage. I took it in late 2007 and I started tapering this March.

I was taking it everday since then, at doses from 4mg+ and lower. You got to go slow at it and anything else cigarettes and stuff have to go because it wont help. You will eventually get more better. I myself never had extreme feelings like that but i think i made it through the worse of it, i take a quarter of a pill 2x a day making it 0.24mg a day decreaseing by 0.125mg every 2-4 weeks.

 

[redsweater]

that sounds fucking awful sorry bro
i don't know if recommending more drugs is the best idea, but i was a bit similar after using stims and psys... my head was fucked and i was getting panic attacks every night (and hence got xanax), but i found that oxycodone calmed me down much more and allowed me to feel normal again

 

[burn out]

I doubt the Zoloft did much more irreversible damage to you than the benzos already did. Benzo withdrawals are no joke. As for whether or not you are broken forever? Only time can answer that. Some people recover from benzo withdrawal and go on to lead wonderful lives. Other people never fully recover. I have been off benzos 2 years meself and I am nowhere near recovered yet but I am still hoping to get thee someday. My advice if you desire to recover would be to eat a healthy diet, get plenty of exercise and pray to God every day for him to heal you. That's about all you can do for benzo withdrawal. I even tried the flumanzeil routine but it did nothing for me. It's in God's hands now.