Overcoming
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 26, 2017
- Messages
- 70
Somebody on here has to get to the bottom of this - i'm sure that they know. i know there is this huge debate over whether this is an actual addiction or what etc, but please look at these anecdotes. if somebody can work out what is driving this progressive, obscenely powerful craving and drive to engaging in compulsive sexual behaviours then i think that we can be in the jackpot from there. no doubts about it.
im fucking waiting and waiting for the specialists to see. man, i can't even describe how hard this is, but im holding onto my life so that i can get help.
i swear down, that if i did not have DP/DR, i would seriously consider ibogaine.
but i hope beyond hope that there is SOMETHING out there that can help me. living at the mercy of this or having these compulsions in your head is fucking messed up.
i should add that at its worst, the right hand side of my head was throbbing and it felt like an electric current was transmitting across there. is that anatomically relevant? that is not normal and there was no "trigger" for my addiction at that point either: just pure electric compulsivity to engage in these behaviours.
im fucking waiting and waiting for the specialists to see. man, i can't even describe how hard this is, but im holding onto my life so that i can get help.
i swear down, that if i did not have DP/DR, i would seriously consider ibogaine.
but i hope beyond hope that there is SOMETHING out there that can help me. living at the mercy of this or having these compulsions in your head is fucking messed up.
i should add that at its worst, the right hand side of my head was throbbing and it felt like an electric current was transmitting across there. is that anatomically relevant? that is not normal and there was no "trigger" for my addiction at that point either: just pure electric compulsivity to engage in these behaviours.