Things have come to light but I realised that I wronged a certain person very much. I don't know if it could ever be put right but I know that I have made one hell of a huge mistake to someone who had been a great support to me with getting into treatment n so much n we let people play us 
I sent this person an E-mail saying sorry but it's not enough. I'm going to let things go n thank God that at last I know the truth.
Trouble is I was so hurt n angry I said some truly wicked stuff to this person that I am EXTREMELY ashamed of.
I am so extremely greatful to Bluelight. This site has been good to me. No drama n full of supportive people. I've been here almost four months now n during that time I've stopped drinking, gone to 12mg sub, started making plans n have goals to aim for. In 2014 I will taper off suboxone. It is time to.
I am so terribly sorry that I had it so wrong with a certain person n have lost that friendship for good but that's life n I hope she's happy where-ever she is. I was gillable n stupid to think certain people were friends n they never were. I let people make fun of me, humiliate me but that was me in self-destruct n I will not let it happen again.
Onwards n forwards - n I know that God is with me n will guide me showing the way as long as I don't choose addiction over him again. I've been a complete idiot believing people cared, trying to contact them when they were laughing n mocking me but that's ok. It hurt like hell but hay ho - the best form of revenge is to be happy, get on with my life, move forward, make amends for bad deeds n hold my hand out to my responsibilities n keep walking.....
Feeling a bit down over crap but that will pass.... It will all pass n life will be better again. I am exercising, losing weight, joining groups, going on the sunbeds n having my sleeve done so all is ok n God has answered my prayers.
Please take care n those of you fighting addictions you can do it those of you jump meth / sub you are inspirations I truly mean that.
Evey
I sent this person an E-mail saying sorry but it's not enough. I'm going to let things go n thank God that at last I know the truth.
Trouble is I was so hurt n angry I said some truly wicked stuff to this person that I am EXTREMELY ashamed of.
I am so extremely greatful to Bluelight. This site has been good to me. No drama n full of supportive people. I've been here almost four months now n during that time I've stopped drinking, gone to 12mg sub, started making plans n have goals to aim for. In 2014 I will taper off suboxone. It is time to.
I am so terribly sorry that I had it so wrong with a certain person n have lost that friendship for good but that's life n I hope she's happy where-ever she is. I was gillable n stupid to think certain people were friends n they never were. I let people make fun of me, humiliate me but that was me in self-destruct n I will not let it happen again.
Onwards n forwards - n I know that God is with me n will guide me showing the way as long as I don't choose addiction over him again. I've been a complete idiot believing people cared, trying to contact them when they were laughing n mocking me but that's ok. It hurt like hell but hay ho - the best form of revenge is to be happy, get on with my life, move forward, make amends for bad deeds n hold my hand out to my responsibilities n keep walking.....
Feeling a bit down over crap but that will pass.... It will all pass n life will be better again. I am exercising, losing weight, joining groups, going on the sunbeds n having my sleeve done so all is ok n God has answered my prayers.
Please take care n those of you fighting addictions you can do it those of you jump meth / sub you are inspirations I truly mean that.
Evey