Fellow BL friend using my account for privacy:
I got rx'd seroquel 100mg for depression only (i've tried many others when younger, no category seems to work). After reading about it, seems that it is only rx'd off label for that.
My situation is, I'm taking 40+mg methylphenidate per day (also rx'd but kinda going over)... definitely depressed, haven't been sleeping or eating much, Some of this nasty depression is related to a sad breakup, still foolishly but hopelessly pursuing has made recovery worse, need to forget her; as for clinical depression, I think this will be the first time I admit on here, I've had it since I was 14, exactly half my life; range from mild to severe, but only real suicidal when on paxil at 16. I also take 4mg sub/day and neurontin 1200mg day. was honest to doc about everything except sub (and tobacco).
I've been too afraid to take the seroquel after reading all the threads on here; sounds dysphoric. But i do want to sleep and eat better; maybe feel less depressed too. I think the m-date has been hard on me, sniffing it all the time (usually 5-15mg at a time but not going over 50mg/day), now coughing from that.
I dont have much responsibilities now but semester starting...in about 2 weeks. I'd like to lower my dosages of stuff. Maybe could seroquel use help me lower the other stuff, and provide a peaceful escape from mild withdrawal and the chest-stabbing sadness (heartbreak indeed, maybe worse from the stim)?
I am borderline suicidal, in that, its nice to think about blasting away to "freedom" sometimes, but really, really doubt I'd do that as i've been like that and know how to deal with it by now; not a risk worth mentioning, said this to express my depression level. Should I just pop one of those and see what happens? Cut it down to a lower dose? That idiot psychiatrist said it was a low dose (100mg) but after reading on here doesn't seem so.
Rather just escape with seroquel if it's just drowsy, i feel like i'm in jail anyways. however, I saw the pharmacology of it, hope it doesn't cause more depression by blocking dopamine and stuff. If it does, can it be counteracted by more m-date?
Thanks for any helpful input; I'll msg Hiss my replies to answer any questions or clarifications needed. May my 2nd darkest depression end soon, and may that girl, and all the false hope and lies, fade from my memory asap.
I got rx'd seroquel 100mg for depression only (i've tried many others when younger, no category seems to work). After reading about it, seems that it is only rx'd off label for that.
My situation is, I'm taking 40+mg methylphenidate per day (also rx'd but kinda going over)... definitely depressed, haven't been sleeping or eating much, Some of this nasty depression is related to a sad breakup, still foolishly but hopelessly pursuing has made recovery worse, need to forget her; as for clinical depression, I think this will be the first time I admit on here, I've had it since I was 14, exactly half my life; range from mild to severe, but only real suicidal when on paxil at 16. I also take 4mg sub/day and neurontin 1200mg day. was honest to doc about everything except sub (and tobacco).
I've been too afraid to take the seroquel after reading all the threads on here; sounds dysphoric. But i do want to sleep and eat better; maybe feel less depressed too. I think the m-date has been hard on me, sniffing it all the time (usually 5-15mg at a time but not going over 50mg/day), now coughing from that.
I dont have much responsibilities now but semester starting...in about 2 weeks. I'd like to lower my dosages of stuff. Maybe could seroquel use help me lower the other stuff, and provide a peaceful escape from mild withdrawal and the chest-stabbing sadness (heartbreak indeed, maybe worse from the stim)?
I am borderline suicidal, in that, its nice to think about blasting away to "freedom" sometimes, but really, really doubt I'd do that as i've been like that and know how to deal with it by now; not a risk worth mentioning, said this to express my depression level. Should I just pop one of those and see what happens? Cut it down to a lower dose? That idiot psychiatrist said it was a low dose (100mg) but after reading on here doesn't seem so.
Rather just escape with seroquel if it's just drowsy, i feel like i'm in jail anyways. however, I saw the pharmacology of it, hope it doesn't cause more depression by blocking dopamine and stuff. If it does, can it be counteracted by more m-date?
Thanks for any helpful input; I'll msg Hiss my replies to answer any questions or clarifications needed. May my 2nd darkest depression end soon, and may that girl, and all the false hope and lies, fade from my memory asap.
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