Another Poppy Tea W/D Thread

[mr50/50]

I registered just to share my experience. I'd like to start off by sending everyone here a heartfelt "thank you" for all the support you've given me, just through reading other peoples' threads. That being said, I'll tell my somewhat long story.

I discovered opiates after having my wisdom teeth removed at 18 (I'm 25 now). I was in love with the feeling. But, in the small town I live in, they're VERY hard to come by. Every few months a friend would come across some and share, but never in enough quantity to be a nuisance. Then, 3 years ago, we moved my grandfather into a nursing home. Jackpot. I was cleaning out his house when I found 2 GIANT bottles of Hydro 10/325s. He never took them because he hated the way they made him feel, but for some reason he kept filling the scripts.

Those 400 or so pills set me up for a 9 month habit. I took at least 2 every day after work, and stayed pretty stoned on the weekends. Looking back I don't know how I didn't get deeper into them.

One day I realized it was out of hand, and quit cold turkey. It was the worst experience of my life. For 2 weeks I slept 2 hours a night, and had some of the worst depression I can comprehend. I couldn't tell anyone, I was too afraid. It nearly ruined my marriage, and I've regretted it since.

Fast forward 2 years. That marriage has since failed, and I've been back into opiates after 2 years clean. I found out about poppy tea on this website, and have been dosing 2-3 times daily since January.

I've been thinking of quitting for months, but work is SO much more enjoyable while high. 2 weeks ago, I placed a new order, I was running a little low. A week went by and I ran out of pods. I had a handful of Hydro's that I'd been saving for just such an emergency, but I was irresponsible and ran out on Thursday. Friday morning at work, the symptoms hit me like a bus. I left early at lunch, and went to a local urgent care clinic. I had every intention of telling the PA that I talked to the truth, but pussed out the moment he walked into the room. He diagnosed me with a stomach bug, due to my nausea, bowel problems, and flu like symptoms. It was a blessing in disguise, because I've been off work for 3 days now.

Friday was HELL. PPT withdrawal is 10X worse than my Hydro habit was. I can deal with depression, and RLS can be dealt with, but the pain and anxiety is what kills me. When I read that PPT W/D symptoms can last 2 weeks, I literally thought of suicide.

I took the advice on here, and loaded up on Lope. It has helped, but it does constipate you. That's not a problem because I haven't eaten more than 3 bites of food since Friday morning. Melatonin and Ambien have been my saviors. I've had a full 8 hours of sleep both nights since this began, and I think it's made all the difference in the world.

I woke up this morning (day 3), at my parents' house, feeling like crap. But as I got up and moving around, I'm doing a lot better.

I know it will fall on deaf ears, just like the warnings I read 9 months ago, but stay away from this stuff. Unless you have the self control to dose once a week or less, don't even start.

Thanks again for all your support! Even though it wasn't directed at me, it was a tremendous help just reading the supportive words.

I do have 1 question, though....

Is it possible that the 5 days I went without drinking tea, taking only Hydro's, acted as a sort of taper? I just find it hard to believe that my W/D symptoms are so diminished on day 3..

 

[Bojangles69]

Hey Mr50/50 good to see yah here at bluelight.

As far as your hydro "taper" that more or less depends on the actual amounts you took while you were in wds. If you were taking heavy doses, every few hours, than chances are all it did was delay wds.
If you took just a little bit here and there as needed, than its very well possible it acted like a taper.

You really just have to look back on those 5 days and ask yourself "how did I feel?", if you felt good for say 80% of the time, than you most likely just delayed wds.

If you only felt good 40-50% of the time, than I'm sure you were withdrawing a fair deal which prob got some symptoms out of your system quicker.

I still consider you somewhat lucky, to have diminished symptoms by "day 3", I mean logic says day 3 is the classic day of peaking for pod withdrawals. Not diminished symptoms. So due to that one statement alone I have to assume you were withdrawing a fair deal even while taking the hydro. If not, than you just got really lucky.

Good luck and if you wanna continue to update feel free to do so, this is a moment in time when TONS of people are getting off pods (prices) and every single one of those people quitting really needs individualized attention of some sort, if only to figure out some things in their own minds.

Take care - Bo

 

[mr50/50]

I didn't have enough Hydro to actually have a buzz. I had just enough that I felt okay for those 5 days.

I also consider myself VERY lucky. I was really dreading 2 weeks of hell, like I previously experienced. I'm hoping that in the week that I haven't had pods, the Hydro has kept me from feeling the worst of the symptoms while my body adjusts to the lack of Morphine and Codeine in my system.

I'm not really expecting my last order to be delivered. I actually hope that it DOESN'T come. I'm still a little anxious and jittery, and the depression is still here, but I'm starting to get excited about being sober again. I, unlike a lot of pod users, had an awesome social life before I started. I've become a shut-in of sorts. Most nights I'd rather be online or watching TV. I've missed all kinds of great concerts, lake days, camping trips, all because lately my life has revolved around my next dose.