So we play this game again, do we?
Another round? Haven't had enough yet?
Some things never change.
Why did you have to be the one thing in my life
That I both loved and hated with equal passion.
Because if I had loved you just a little more,
I would have gone crazy.
And if I had hated you just a little more,
I could have walked away years ago without looking back.
But, as my life would have it, I'm doomed to walk in your shadow forever
And that's all you are, a shadow,
Yet still, you block the sun just enough so that things cant be perfect.
When I found out that she left you,
I was caught up in bliss.
I was happy at the thought of you hurting,
After all the pain you've caused me over the years.
I wanted to taste every bitter tear she caused you
And still didn't give you enough credit to even care that she left you
Because I was convinced that you don't even have a heart.
I stifled the "Good for you" that i wanted so badly to send you,
And instead cured my writer's block and wrote the most emotional piece
I've written since we parted, 3 years ago? 4?
But I wasn't expecting the opportunity that came to me.
I wasn't expecting your call on monday.
I was driving in my car, in perfect sunlight, unclouded by your shadow
And you were the farthest thing from my thoughts
Until I answered my phone and heard your voice
And rain started to fall where the sun was now gone.
Is it because I actually have a heart?
Or because I once cared?
Do you still occupy a distant corner of my heart,
And that's why I couldn't throw it back in your face
Like I had done in my mind?
When you told me how sad you were
That she had packed her last box and moved out that day,
And you didn't know what to do with yourself,
Now that this end was real,
I actually felt bad for you.
Even though I hate her,
And even though part of me really hates you and always will,
I still felt bad for you.
I was always the one in your life who tried to tell you
Everything would be all right,
Always the one to hold you up
And give you a shoulder to cry on
And even though you could NEVER return the favor,
Part of me still ached to see you hurt
And i KNOW how it feels
Cuz you did it to me.
Over and over.
And I offered one more time in this never-ending saga
To be there for you
But I should have known you'd pull another "justin"
And things would be the way they always were.
And here it is, wednesday, and you can go fuck yourself
I'm sorry i ever pitied you
And i wish i hadnt been compelled to answer my phone the other day
We could have avoided this cat-and-mouse game
That is only going to end the way it always has,
With me frustrated and angry and hating you
And you backing out like a child, like always.
Maybe its for the best.
You don't deserve the 10 minutes i gave you on monday,
And you certainly dont deserve any more than that.
Today, or ever.
Go back to your fantasy world where you always win,
And nothing ever changes.
And leave me fucking out of it.
I've stepped out of your shadow long ago,
Let some other naive fool stand in it.
Another round? Haven't had enough yet?
Some things never change.
Why did you have to be the one thing in my life
That I both loved and hated with equal passion.
Because if I had loved you just a little more,
I would have gone crazy.
And if I had hated you just a little more,
I could have walked away years ago without looking back.
But, as my life would have it, I'm doomed to walk in your shadow forever
And that's all you are, a shadow,
Yet still, you block the sun just enough so that things cant be perfect.
When I found out that she left you,
I was caught up in bliss.
I was happy at the thought of you hurting,
After all the pain you've caused me over the years.
I wanted to taste every bitter tear she caused you
And still didn't give you enough credit to even care that she left you
Because I was convinced that you don't even have a heart.
I stifled the "Good for you" that i wanted so badly to send you,
And instead cured my writer's block and wrote the most emotional piece
I've written since we parted, 3 years ago? 4?
But I wasn't expecting the opportunity that came to me.
I wasn't expecting your call on monday.
I was driving in my car, in perfect sunlight, unclouded by your shadow
And you were the farthest thing from my thoughts
Until I answered my phone and heard your voice
And rain started to fall where the sun was now gone.
Is it because I actually have a heart?
Or because I once cared?
Do you still occupy a distant corner of my heart,
And that's why I couldn't throw it back in your face
Like I had done in my mind?
When you told me how sad you were
That she had packed her last box and moved out that day,
And you didn't know what to do with yourself,
Now that this end was real,
I actually felt bad for you.
Even though I hate her,
And even though part of me really hates you and always will,
I still felt bad for you.
I was always the one in your life who tried to tell you
Everything would be all right,
Always the one to hold you up
And give you a shoulder to cry on
And even though you could NEVER return the favor,
Part of me still ached to see you hurt
And i KNOW how it feels
Cuz you did it to me.
Over and over.
And I offered one more time in this never-ending saga
To be there for you
But I should have known you'd pull another "justin"
And things would be the way they always were.
And here it is, wednesday, and you can go fuck yourself
I'm sorry i ever pitied you
And i wish i hadnt been compelled to answer my phone the other day
We could have avoided this cat-and-mouse game
That is only going to end the way it always has,
With me frustrated and angry and hating you
And you backing out like a child, like always.
Maybe its for the best.
You don't deserve the 10 minutes i gave you on monday,
And you certainly dont deserve any more than that.
Today, or ever.
Go back to your fantasy world where you always win,
And nothing ever changes.
And leave me fucking out of it.
I've stepped out of your shadow long ago,
Let some other naive fool stand in it.
