What a pleasant thing to wake up to. My mom ranting and raving at my bro and dad about nothing. It's just that her fucked up head decided that on this sunday when everyone is home and we are supposed to be eating a nice dinner that she is going to make everyone miserable.
She even says sometimes and i quote "since im miserable im going to make everyone else feel miserable too". What sane fucking person would want to do that? The last thing i would want is for anyone i cared about to feel as bad as i do sometimes. In fact i would do anything i could for someone i cared about not to have to go through what i go through.
She also refuses to get any help and only in the rare occasions when she is feeling remorseful does she even admit she has a fucking problem. Most of the time she says "there is nothing wrong with me except that i have to be around all you people and i have to live in this house". Ive been hearing that since i was about 16 or so i think. I have no idea what disorder she actually has but she most certainly does need to see a psychiatrist or something.
I mean im no fucking angel but atleast i admit i have a problem and i get treatment for it. She just can't seem to do that.
So how do i deal with al this shit? The same way i deal with most bad shit that happens i take 4 60mg MScontins as soon as wake up instead of the 1 im supposed to take. That along with 4-6mg's of clonazepam, some diphenhydramine and maybe a few percocets will have me not giving a fuck about all this nonsense fairly soon.
Off to the pleasant land of nod.
Well after dinner she chilled out abit and stopped yelling at me and my bro. My dad (so called dad anyway) was gone so that might have helped chill her out. Whenever he's around the noise level goes up by 90%.
She did go into a period of self loathing later on tonight but i didnt let it get me down. I was pretty high by then so it wasent bothering me
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She even says sometimes and i quote "since im miserable im going to make everyone else feel miserable too". What sane fucking person would want to do that? The last thing i would want is for anyone i cared about to feel as bad as i do sometimes. In fact i would do anything i could for someone i cared about not to have to go through what i go through.
She also refuses to get any help and only in the rare occasions when she is feeling remorseful does she even admit she has a fucking problem. Most of the time she says "there is nothing wrong with me except that i have to be around all you people and i have to live in this house". Ive been hearing that since i was about 16 or so i think. I have no idea what disorder she actually has but she most certainly does need to see a psychiatrist or something.
I mean im no fucking angel but atleast i admit i have a problem and i get treatment for it. She just can't seem to do that.
So how do i deal with al this shit? The same way i deal with most bad shit that happens i take 4 60mg MScontins as soon as wake up instead of the 1 im supposed to take. That along with 4-6mg's of clonazepam, some diphenhydramine and maybe a few percocets will have me not giving a fuck about all this nonsense fairly soon.
Off to the pleasant land of nod.
Well after dinner she chilled out abit and stopped yelling at me and my bro. My dad (so called dad anyway) was gone so that might have helped chill her out. Whenever he's around the noise level goes up by 90%.
She did go into a period of self loathing later on tonight but i didnt let it get me down. I was pretty high by then so it wasent bothering me
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