Motivation why is it so hard to obtain. I smoked some weed yesterday for the first time in 4 months thinking it might do me some good to do something i used to do. It felt good but at the same time i felt like shit. but then again i always feel like shit now because of the pills i was doing. I never wanted to quit smoking weed i had to because of the benzo withdrawal and then being but on zoloft things got even worse and i just stayed away from it. but its not just weed it everything i used to do before i changed my ways last december. everything i do now is so hard and creates stress and fear in me. its like i have this dark cloud following me around. i just want to be able to enjoy life again.
