another day

every day is pretty epic I must say...still haven't told my parents that I quit my job (or career...haha) - i have an appointment with the drug squad , not really , just addiction services I guess and get another bout of seeing a psychiatrist...seriously how do you deal with these people? 9am tomorrow...

the seroquel is a rough ride...its not a feel good time, just wake up in the middle of the night and wonder where the fuck I am with a side order of dry mouth. during the day is just some sort of spaced experience. didnt leave the house today. nowhere to go really. cleaned and did laundry...nowhere near looking for another job yet.

oh dear lord (*snicker*) tell me how to not become an addict? or stop being one? I guess they might clue me in on that bit of puzzle. I'm too stunted during the day to do much and thats only 25mg! at night ...

anyone know what to do for thanksgiving? not much to give thanks for...thanks for the grub and pass the ammo. some wild solo sesh with the parents. its thanksgiving in Canada here and thats really lame.

I hope I get EI.

Oh one finally joke for the day:

Do you feel like hurting yourself?
Do you feel like hurting others?

Are you a pedophile?

...

 

Bleh, Thanksgiving was always a non-holiday for me. My parents always liked to go 'camping' in their RV, and cook a whole huge meal in it. So we're guaranteed to be uncomfortable, grumpy, and eat a 2nd rate dinner. This year they've built a cabin, and are having most of the local family over so it should be a bit better.

Still, as a vegetarian it's a pain in the ass. I'm thankful for the long weekend, but I'd rather spend the whole time as I see fit rather than waste a day pretending that I'm not annoyed at having to drive out of town to see my family.

Meh.

 

oh dear lord (*snicker*) tell me how to not become an addict?

I don't think a Psychiatrist is going to be the best bet, I know it sounds like B.S. and not what any addict wants to hear, but really you just got to be ready and want to do it for yourself. Even then...I been sober currently three weeks (my longest being 2 months) but I still can't stop thinking about how wonderful "just one more" time will feel, I wish I could just find a cure, but that don't exist.

 

I don't think a Psychiatrist is going to be the best bet, I know it sounds like B.S. and not what any addict wants to hear, but really you just got to be ready and want to do it for yourself.

That's true and that's also wrong, kids. What happens when Plan A fails? Right.

Plan B.

I rest my case.