TV's on in the corner, I'm not really paying attention. SNL sucks nowadays anyways. Its starting to get colder now, I have my window open anyway. The smell of my dad's cigar smoke mixes with the fall breeze.
I wonder what my friends are doing now, probably sitting at someones house as bored as I am. Its really my fault I'm sitting alone, I was the one that made the choice. Most definatly one of the worst choices I've made in my life. Out of sheer boredom and homesickness I just had to taste oxy. I'd been fine with vicoden, I could handle this shit too.
How wrong I was, I guess all I can say is shit how dumb was I? Cost me alot, the trust of my friends and a year of college. I gained alot though, new respect from my parents and friends, good grades, the ability to fall asleep without a beer or two and a bowl or a couple of pills and best of all the knowledge I don't always have to be high on something. My friends know not to call me when they are planning on drinking or toking which is basically everynight. Its like mental torture to me, I'll just stare, dare I say with lust at a can of beer. Fuck, that shit wasn't even my problem but right now I can't trust myself in any kind of alterted state.
I guess I'll smoke a cigarette and watch SNL. Its a Tracy Morgon special, he's pretty funny.
I wonder what my friends are doing now, probably sitting at someones house as bored as I am. Its really my fault I'm sitting alone, I was the one that made the choice. Most definatly one of the worst choices I've made in my life. Out of sheer boredom and homesickness I just had to taste oxy. I'd been fine with vicoden, I could handle this shit too.
How wrong I was, I guess all I can say is shit how dumb was I? Cost me alot, the trust of my friends and a year of college. I gained alot though, new respect from my parents and friends, good grades, the ability to fall asleep without a beer or two and a bowl or a couple of pills and best of all the knowledge I don't always have to be high on something. My friends know not to call me when they are planning on drinking or toking which is basically everynight. Its like mental torture to me, I'll just stare, dare I say with lust at a can of beer. Fuck, that shit wasn't even my problem but right now I can't trust myself in any kind of alterted state.
I guess I'll smoke a cigarette and watch SNL. Its a Tracy Morgon special, he's pretty funny.
