I’ve not written a blog before but thought I’d give it a go, I guess I’m leaving myself wide open here, so here goes.
My mum died of cancer 12 months ago tomorrow (12th Jan 10). My two sisters and father are all going for a nice walk around town tomorrow to take their minds of the event, I have to work. To date I have never been to her grave which hurts, really hurts cos I think I want to but can’t if that makes sense. I feel frustrated, lonely and miss her so much. My profession and training keeps telling me I should practice what I preach but refuse to almost like I’m trying to punish myself.
So why am I writing this, I guess I’m looking for answers and hoping by doing this the penny will drop and I’ll find the strength to move on. Also I guess this will be something to look back on if it’s still on here this time next year, I’ll be able to see how far I’ve come.
If anyone reads this then thanks, if not, well I seem to have got it off my chest which has to be a positive thing.
My mum died of cancer 12 months ago tomorrow (12th Jan 10). My two sisters and father are all going for a nice walk around town tomorrow to take their minds of the event, I have to work. To date I have never been to her grave which hurts, really hurts cos I think I want to but can’t if that makes sense. I feel frustrated, lonely and miss her so much. My profession and training keeps telling me I should practice what I preach but refuse to almost like I’m trying to punish myself.
So why am I writing this, I guess I’m looking for answers and hoping by doing this the penny will drop and I’ll find the strength to move on. Also I guess this will be something to look back on if it’s still on here this time next year, I’ll be able to see how far I’ve come.
If anyone reads this then thanks, if not, well I seem to have got it off my chest which has to be a positive thing.
My heart goes out to you 