Anhedonia help?!
Don't really know where to start, but I'll do my best. This might be long. 8)
So, I would like to say it started around the time after my prescription meth/amphetamine use. I was prescribed them for AD(H)D. I was prescribed Adderall IR's 20mgs on February 28th of 2009. It all started off amazing, you know, the "honeymoon period". I was blown away in euphoria both mental and physical for up to 6-8 hours with a lingering afterglow for the days to follow this lasted till Late July. That was when tolerance started to make itself apparent, I then switched to Vyvanse in hopes of extending the time it would last, and hopefully gain back some of its magic.
I might add that I only took amphetamines about 3 times a week to delay tolerance as well to keep away from psychological dependency.
Anyways that all went well till about September. September was when I started "crashing" from amphetamines. This is where stuff started falling apart mentally. Even with the crashes getting more and more apparent as well as side effects becoming more prominent and less "magic". Yet I kept using it till mid November, that's when I made the switch to Focalin in hopes that moving away from amphetamines in search for the next magical pill, however this one was a bomb. It made me feel robotic and the duration of its effects were a joke, not to mention I still crashed.
(I might add at this point in time I was also starting to develop pretty frequent anxiety issues, especially with psychotropics.)
At this point (Late January 2010) I was about to give up, but I decided to go for stimulant "gold",
Desoxyn. With very little effort, to my surprise I got a prescription for Desoxyn. Still naïve I was hopeful this would do the trick. However that wasn't quite the case. With anxiety showing up I wasn't able to fully use Desoxyn, but from what I experienced it was a lot cleaner, with less general side effects, and a very gentle comedown in comparison to other stimulants. However I gave up on Desoxyn after only about a month or two of use due to insomnia and just not seeing the benefits.
So with the amphetamine back story I'll try and wrap this up

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Other than amphetamine use, I've smoked Marijuana very seldom. I haven't smoked more than five times withing the past two years and haven't even touched it in over a year, mainly due to anxiety. I have drank very little, and I was also a daily tobacco smoker (2-5 cigs daily) from early 2010 till May 23rd of 2013 (with a few breaks within that time frame as well).
Since May of 2013 I have quit smoking and have become active daily, mainly jogging. I have also picked up a organic diet for the most part. So I think its safe to say I'm fairly healthy once again.
So, after I quite stimulants altogether back in 2010 I've been anhedonic, although not severe. I have gotten better within the years, but not nearly where I want it to be. I might mention that I've
always been harder to please since I was a child, but not this bad. I just feel like after being exposed to amphetamines, life has been very lackluster and that something is missing. I'm missing a little bit of bliss and happiness.
I have been seeing a psychologist since December 28th 2013. I don't really know where to go from here. I think at this point I need chemical intervention, but I have no clue where to look. SSRI's are not going to happen, I will cover this reason later. I tried St. Johns Wort, but it made my anxiety worse, bringing out some cardiophobia. This is actually why I quite smoking last year, because I was convinced I was going to develop heart disease at the age of 21
I might add at this point I have actually been anxiety/panic free in quite some time, at least 3-4 months.
So now here I am asking for advice, physically I am healthy so its not a matter of getting physical and eating proper. I think this is something that is going to require some type of chemical. Anyone with experience use or do something to get this happiness in life back?
Kind of in a hurry so excuse any grammatical errors.