TDS Angry But I Don't Want To Fix It

[Psychedalienation]

I'm pissed. And sad. And apathetic. In a general shitty ass fucking mood. I'm gonna get drunk as fuck soon but it isn't coming soon enough. My trade class ends in 2 hours. And then I have to wait for the heat to die down to walk to the liquor store.

I'm hurt and mad. And I don't wanna fix it. I know I can fix it by looking up some meditation shit or something but I feel like staying mad?


Why do I feel like staying mad? Isn't anger a bad emotion? Why wouldn't I want to be happy right now? I'm capable of it. I don't get it.

 

[DogLover123757]

I have that same issue sometimes, even at my old age I still don't have full control over my emotions and that has caused me a lot of pain and grief. Sometimes it feels good to be angry, I know that sounds weird but anger gives me a sense of confidence if you will and my fears and insecurities temporarily go away. I wish I had all the answers but don't feel like you are alone because you are definitely not. I have also drank myself silly and used a fuckton of drugs and that only gives a temporary fix and then all those feelings and emotions come roaring back as altering your state of consciousness is not a permanent solution. So hang in there man you are not alone and this is a great place to vent and get some help, a lot of good people that have the same issues that will help you. Good luck.

 

[Psychedalienation]

Thanks man, I got over it in a few hours. Anger puts me into one of those states where I don't realize that it won't be forever. Then the feelings get enhanced all superficially. Thanks for your input. Love this community.