of course, nothing happened. he came over, i passed the fuck out, woke up in the morning, we went to the store, i showered, he left.
why did i think anything was going to happen? what the fuck of a retarded idiot am i? i hate this shit. i don't think i will ever be able to forgive him for choosing her to be his girlfriend, that he liked her better than me. so why the fuck are we best friends now? i know, because i have things he needs. and i want him to need me. it just hurts, and i can't seem to ever get over him because he's that great in bed. and yeah people told me over and over and over again ad nauseum 'you'll meet someone else' and all that total fucking bullshit. about 6% of the population are like him in terms of sex. how many of those 6% are easy on the eyes, appealing to me, share my lifestyle and are more or less decent people? so, i guess i have to compromise. i wish i could make myself like more people. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. i want to smack myself on the head and make myself normal. or whatever. i had the love of my life for 8 years. i loved him and thought we'll be together forever. and then i got bored and broke up with him.
blah blah blah. so fucking boring, i know what i'm in for and i do nothing to change it. same ole bull shit.
why did i think anything was going to happen? what the fuck of a retarded idiot am i? i hate this shit. i don't think i will ever be able to forgive him for choosing her to be his girlfriend, that he liked her better than me. so why the fuck are we best friends now? i know, because i have things he needs. and i want him to need me. it just hurts, and i can't seem to ever get over him because he's that great in bed. and yeah people told me over and over and over again ad nauseum 'you'll meet someone else' and all that total fucking bullshit. about 6% of the population are like him in terms of sex. how many of those 6% are easy on the eyes, appealing to me, share my lifestyle and are more or less decent people? so, i guess i have to compromise. i wish i could make myself like more people. i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. i want to smack myself on the head and make myself normal. or whatever. i had the love of my life for 8 years. i loved him and thought we'll be together forever. and then i got bored and broke up with him.
blah blah blah. so fucking boring, i know what i'm in for and i do nothing to change it. same ole bull shit.
